the girl that no one can get,
that no one can keep in their hand.

Just because I dont care doesn't mean I dont understand.

Speak when you are angry, and you will make the best speech you will ever regret.

hey people, i have moved. now to eljay . well, not really. cause even so, i may be blogging there and here. wont be sticking to one. depending on which server loads faster. but definitely, when there's overwhelming pictures to upload, i'll be seeking eljay instead cause the post may seem alittle messy and all if i were to post it in blogspot. oh and of course with eljay, not all post is open to public. haha. suckers. okayy. toodles.










these pics are kinda old. was browsing my folder and saw these precious photos taken perhaps 2 yrs or maybe 3 yrs ago. whoosh, i was so kental back then. but baby was soo handsome and boboyyishh even till now. LOVES.















hello people.

im no longer active in any accounts - all of which i have deleted. of all the accounts, i'll be keeping this blog. i wont change links or whatnots just because of the presence of an imbecile who keeps leaving her unwanted pathetic comments. should i leave the tagboard alone or should i make this blog just a read-only blog that no one is able to comment?

oh well, i shall leave the tagboard alone for now. i wont make the rest of my alter ego suffer just because of the unwanted presence of this well-below-par-in-mental-acumen girl. i wont want my friends to be affected by this idiot also.

anyways, today is my sisters' birthday.
HAPPY 17TH ABBY!!~ Study hard for O's yea? can't believe you're 17. i feel so freakinn' old. anyways, hopefully, by turning 17, your sleep-kicking me will stop. shopping this saturdayy, want??

had family dinner to celebrate her birthday yesterday 'cause today, me and my brother couldnt make it due to work. dinner was at BaliThai at Suntec. after dinner, we made a pitstop at Swensens for ice-cream 'cause Abby wants. was surprised to see Marina working 'cause from what i knew, she can only work on weekends. and after that, we headed to Mustafa Centre 'cause my dad had to meet up with a client. oh and all of us saw bapok. haha. the tits can tahan - BIG le. haha. then headed to Shell to pump fuel and headed back home.

its been so long since i've had a decent dinner with my family. gonna buy abby's present at the end of the month with my brother. we're gonna split the cost. hmm.

gonna be working at Swensens later today. -.- i feel so lazy.


syitah. long time no hear from you. haha.
geeZie. no need to retaliate back to her lah.she's just an attention seeker.
beachbabe. i freakinn miss you. hope to meet u at abang shafiee's wedding.
shasha. HHAHAHAHA! i got no comments. but somehow,i agree with you. >.<



o0o0o~ look who's angry now eyy. hahaha.

masok JC? haha. yea right. i'm sure it wasnt admission to JC, cause it was only the 3 months tryout JC thing. haha. that one bukan masok JC.

at the very least, im holding an advanced diploma which is recognised worldwide. and you? O levels only? si o no? hahaha. im blessed with the luxury living that my parents shower me with. i dont care if you label me as a rich bitch. unlike some people who not only think they're clever but in actual fact, they're actually dumb.

note this yea, in Singapore, without money, you go nowhere.

"oh law maner kau blajar? law kasi laki sundal puki kau"
- this is what you call an academic inclined person talking? haha. you gotta be kidding me.

even if you got the brains (or so you say), what cert are you holding eyy?
nothing right? hahaha. you fool! have you no shame?

eyy poor girl. dont talk to me when you aint got cash aite?

and me? childish? haha. say whatever you want lah.
hey, get this, I DONT GIVE A SHIT!

i'm taking over my parents' business soons.
too bad that girl got nothing in her brains as well as logically but still got the cheek to act big.she's one NATO bitch. (NO ACTION TALK ONLY)

send whatever crap to my parents? AS IF they're gonna entertain people like you.
i'm their angel. and they'll regard you as some girl suffering from an unknown down syndrome that cause you to babble trash. hahaha.

fortunately, we werent friends in the first place. so personally, i got nothing to lose. anyhoos, i got alot of friends already. losing this two hypocrites aint that big a deal. i still got more who are loyal. =)

to my wonderful readers, this will be the last entry that i'm gonna post referring to this no-lifer by the name of Rosiana Jumardi and Noorrezam Said. surely you people are sick of her name appearing in my tagboard right? haha. me too. sad aint it that she cant accept the fact that she's a dumb girl who is attached with a loser.rest well my readers.i know she wont stop with all this craps.she's too..how'd you sayy.. ohh. PSYCHOTIC!~ *nudge fyza*. hehe. good nite everyone. =)




psst. ask NOORREZAM.

when he knew that i got beaten up, he called me straight and then said
"KAU BILANG AKU. KAU NAK AKU BUAT APE NGAN DIER? KAU KAWAN AKU."

eh puki, check with your konek first can?

never give up ehh.
me? only brave in blog? hahaha. looks who's talking.

seriously, what is your problem?



urgh. people like you disgusts me! so the malas wanna layan no lifers.
nothing better to do other than make people fight.



haha. police entertain? hah. yea right. i study law and i know. oh and please, im not your dear. dont ever call me that. of course you and zam are laughing your ass out cause you people enjoy seeing other peoples' relationship ruined. but too bad, your happiness are just short lived cause me and my Hans are happy. better yet, your words about spreading that i'm not a virgin, its your mouth and those who are mature enough will definitely see that you're just some attention seeker. haha. i can see the future now. you in tudung and your friends, with faces so crippled, and still gossip like the world got no limits.

oh and yea, zam has been keeping things from you hasnt he? ahaha. he was the one who calls me when me and Hans broke up. see, how ironic things are eyy. your boyfriend was the one who is flirting with me. but hey, he's not my standard, so yea, i dont entertain him. oh and the time that this thing happened between him and koko, is the time when he met with the pizza hut crews late that night and he told me to keep it quiet cause you dont like the crews and it was late at night and blah blah blah. oh and by the way, during Namira's birthday party, i was keeping my distance from him yet, he was the one who came close to me and snap pictures of us close. dont believe me? want me to post up the pictures? haha. wait, i dont have to, zam got it all. why dont you ask from him?

look who's laughing now eyy. oh. me wake up? haha. girl, its YOU who has to wake up.

girl, even you said it yourself that your boyfriend is always contacting other girls - the pizza hut crew - and yet he doesnt let you contact other guys. c'mon girl, your small boy isnt that into you. perhaps what marina says, you should try to take it into consideration you know. see, people say beauty is only skin deep but that matters the most in everything. hmm.. perhaps some facial surgical makeover would do you good. =) see, now im advising you back.

i'm a good person. you advise me. and now im advising you. advising you to get a facial surgery.

anyways, i know you people enjoy other people's name being badmouthed about. seriously, i pity people like you. so shallow minded and i think you people are those type who suffers from maturity problems..hmm..what is it called again..hmm.. oh yea, mature deficit.

i'm really sorry for zam to have a girlfriend like you but hold up, after thinking it through, i think you both DO deserve one another. zam is such a crybaby and you, haha. there's no word deeper than the word 'lahanat' can ever describe you. cause girl, you're worth much worse than that.

and what? girl on girl? haha. are you serious? ooo, im getting hyped up already. no use talking and threatening me aite. and whats this about you getting your parents involved? haha. why? too much for you to handle? oh yes, back to the girl on girl. you're one skinny ass bitch and here you are trying to manipulate me using words? ooo im scared. hahaha.

c'mon words are nothing okayy. girl on girl, offhand uhh. thats more like it.

i block you and zam on msn is because you people are very longwinded and frankly, you're just wasting my time reading what you have to type out. you two really have got issues with your self-esteem and self-confidence. seeing people hurt makes you feel so great. haha. kinda reminds me of Liyana Haron - the girl who always keeps depicting her life as being perfect but sadly, she's one helluva hypocrite to even be friends with. oh you know what? zam and liyana ARE friends, ooh classmates to be exact. corny isnt it?

remember that time when Nicholas was asking the repeat-o level taker, Liyana, has she ever done sex and she replied that me, fiza and maria has done it too without even answering Nicholas's question. seems to me, you and Liyana are in the same boat. lucky for me, i distant myself from her since that day forth for being such a bitch to say such a despicable thing.

i guess i was blinded by the fact that zam was once my friend and thinking that he wont do such a thing. yea, i overlooked. its okayy its all right. he's a no lifer. and for that, i'm sorry for him. and for YOU, Rosiana, i dont owe you anything. and please lah. your threat isnt working on me. try it on zam's younger sister. i can assure you, it'll work.

reading on your 6 July post, seems that you've been creating issues with people huhs. tsk tsk tsk. girl, do you have a life at all? cause obviously, you dont. saying i got no pride and no self discipline and im thick skin? haha. girl, you need a mirror. seriously, a BIG one - enough for you to turn you back against it, and bend over and after that, see through the hole that your shit comes out which is called the ASSHOLE. dont mistaken it for another hole, you know, the hole that Zam has inserted his dick in, aww, you know, the one which is called Vagina. okayy. back to the asshole, after you see through your asshole, try to open it, or better yet, use your hands and stretch it side ways. in there, you'll see your brains. after which, use your hands and try your best to get it all out before your brains starts to fill up with shit. eh, wait. it already is. guess im too late. hahaha.


COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS SKINNY BITCH.
cause it may run out just sooner than you ever think.





i know its kinda like LATE. but im gonna rant it out anyways.

i just remembered. you cant make a police report about making false statements about petty things like these. even those pathetic fat officers wont entertain you. stuuupid sia.

ehh girl, if you wanna really threaten people, you should do your research first okayyy?

HAHAHA. STUPID SIA.

FUNNY KANN!!
WANNA THREATEN BUT IN THE END, YOU MADE A FOOL OF YOURSELF.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! ROSIANA ROSIANA.. TSK TSK TSK.. HAHAHA..
CANT BELIEVE YOU'RE THAT DOWNRIGHT STUUUPID!








stop dirtying my tagboard with your craps please.

and no, my life aint that drama. or so she says calling me some drama queen. hah.

words like that dont hurt me. it really doesnt.

now, im contemplating to delete every single account i have and including this blog. i lost interest in blogging and updating my profiles on the internet. somehow, the more i update, the more people starts to discriminate me. some of which, for no apparent reason. which really is, stupid.

dont ask me about hans. frankly, since this matter arose again, we argued and the status of the relationship? i myself dont know. maybe i should really close my heart on love lah. this year really is one heck of a ride.

and i totally lost interest in working in swensens. i have my reasons. PERIOD!

the next interview for SIA Cabin Crew, i'm signing up for it. at least when i get it..eh wait.that doesnt sound right..hmm.. IF i get in.., i would be overseas and not know what hell is happening and i wont get affected one bit. and even if i do, before i know it, i'll be flying to dont-know-where.

i confess. im sick of this internet thing already.

haiya. whatever lah. bye



eh please eh you people.

i got badmouth about you people or not in the first place? even if i did, it would just be cause of anger and then it'll just end there. it wont spread.

i dont go to Zam for comfort or in need of advise lah. kau pikir aku ni ape? nak kacau orang lain punye relationship? eh please lah eh. memang betol ah aku bual ngan lelaki lain sume ah tapi kan, aku tak bual ngan those yang da ade matair la ehh. i dont give a shit nor am i jealous that your relationship is smooth or whatever fuck lah. thats YOUR life, not mine. aku tak perasan lah yang dier ade gambar aku cumer aku tak suke lah sial. aku tak paya nak perasan diri eh. aku tau aku lawa. tak paya nak step lah eh. aku tak step decent eh babe. aku MEMANG decent. kalau memang kau tak kisah pasal aku punye life, yang in the first place, apesal biler aku dengan Han break up the other time, kau ngan zam yang kecoh kecoh and encourage me to move on? ape nak motivate? TAK PERLU LAH EHH.NOT EVEN YOUR PITY.NOT NEEDED. GET IT? YEA. NOT NEEDED. NADA.

you get pampered by love. but i get pampered by my freakinn credit cards!!
isnt it that freakinn obvious that we aren't chasing after the same thing?

i'm not desperate for friends. I GOT MY GIRLS. only that my girls and me have got our own paths and we do catch up on life once a while. i dont need guys to make me feel good about myself. even when my girls arent around, i still have my sister.

I DONT CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES' LIVES! GET IT??

tell you what la ehh.

EZAM , HANS, KOKO - WE SIT AND SETTLE THIS FUCKING SHIT OKAYY! ROSIANA DONT GET INVOLVE. UNLESS YOU WANA MAKE IT WORSE THAN IT ALREADY IS.

I take this VERY seriously.

oh and btw, i DONT fuckinn block you. i changed my number again. OKEH!?

oh oh, and ROSIANA, DONT YOU FUCKINN EVER DARE TO 'TSK' AT A KARANI!!! AND GET YOUR FUCKINN FACTS RIGHT BEFORE YOU START SHOOTING BLANKS AT PEOPLE!

oh and IM GLAD. glad that we're on the same page. cause neither do i want to be of friends with you. you added me in msn first. REMEMBER?


EH WAIT, U KNOW WHAT!?! i got a better idea. why not conference call. at least it doesnt affect any of my plans and schedules. 'cause unlike YOU gossipers, I DO have a life.

'CAUSE all i wanna know is :
1) WHO SAID IT?
2) WHO SPREAD IT?
3) IS IT TRUE THAT HANS IS OUT TO ONLY FOOL AROUND WITH ME?

THAT IS ALL! AND DONT FUCKINN SIDETRACK FROM THE TOPIC.
NO EXAGGERATION IS NEEDED.



haiyaa.. i should have just continued my m.i.a-ing from this freakinn cyberworld. and even if there is people who are badmouthing about me, i couldnt really be that bothered. why cant you people just leave my fuckinn life alone?

between me and hans? haiya. i dont know what to say already lah.

for 2 years plus, i've been away from the cyberworld and now that i'm back, shit happens.

this is one of the reasons that i've deleted my accounts.

(edit/)

sometimes i feel a need to know the truth. but at times, i couldnt be bothered to know. reason is, once i know the truth, what can i do? it has already happened. my heart hurts with every word being said. i dont know who to trust. whose words is saying the truth. im not fuckinn popular. never do i intrude other peoples' lives. why do people still bother my life? what have i done wrong to you people? haiz. i dont know lah.



it doesnt mean anything if the thing that you call 'FRIENDSHIP' is being betrayed. whats worse is when you talk shit about me to strangers. i admit, i do have a rocky relationship with Hans, but that doesnt give you the right to do that. you said you werent the one who sparked the topic, but hey, why the fuck do you have my picture in your freakinn' phone? i dont give a shit about who started the topic but AS A FRIEND, you should've stopped or perhaps change that stinkinn' conversation topic. you're a guy for god's sakes. if you're a girl, thats excusable lah cause every girl bitch about the other girlfriends' back. but for the love of god, BE A MAN!

when i first heard about that stupid thing, i called you straight cause your name was mentioned. i fuckinn' called so many times and you rejected it. why? feeling guilty aye? i had to call your girlfriend and your girl had to talk to you and then talk to me. what the fuck. your girl said you were trying to call that friend of yours cause you wanna ask him, why is your name being mentioned. hah. funny ah you people.

now your girl got the cheek to say that YOU try to give advise to me 'cause what friend of yours say is that MY BOYFRIEND is only out to fool around with me.

stop making things worse lah jackass.

now your girl posts on her blog :
'to korang who likes to fitnah my hubby eh. stop it sak konek ngan cibai korang. So u guys are back, tapi jgn uat taik kat hidop kiter, kiter tkde uat taik per kat idop korang, korang yg uat taik sendiri. dah uat salah, jgn pakai taik ah untuk cover korang nyer pantat. siasat dulu. korang pikir, matair aku byk time nak uat taik macam korang uat. puih! blah ah lu orang! sebelum aku get more harsher and confront korang. !'

Kalau memang kau anak jantan, kau tak akan tolak balak lah sial. you face the consequences. and if you're saying the truth, you wont be this freakinn' scared or dont even have the balls to talk to me about what actually happened. all you said was you werent at fault.

now you put your girl on the line. and here she is threatening me? WTF.

WHERE'S YOUR BALLS DUDE?
being the freeloading jerk that you are,
thanks for sharing MY life story to a stranger.

FUCK OFF. LEAVE MY RELATIONSHIP ALONE.


oh and btw, ROSIANA,
do me a favor will you? can you check in the pants of your so-called 'HUBBY' who goes by the name, NOORREZAM BIN SAID, and tell me, whether does he have a kotek or a punani okayys? oh, yes, not forgetting that YOU do need some attitude makeover. oh better yet, you and your 'HUBBY' should stop talking and interfering with other people's lives and start occupying your time playing HIDE-AND-GO-FUCK-YOURSELF! 'cause seriously, you both need to get a life.