interlude

2008-08-20T12:59:00.003+08:00

hey people, i have moved. now to eljay . well, not really. cause even so, i may be blogging there and here. wont be sticking to one. depending on which server loads faster. but definitely, when there's overwhelming pictures to upload, i'll be seeking eljay instead cause the post may seem alittle messy and all if i were to post it in blogspot. oh and of course with eljay, not all post is open to public. haha. suckers. okayy. toodles.

2008-08-11T14:18:00.001+08:00

Hello dumbfucks, I'm Tasharina. This is my blog, my freedom of speech. I post whatever i want in here. If you're offended, please leave. If you dislike me, you shouldn't have even started reading it in the first place.

Get my drift? No seriously. why are you still reading my blog, asswipe?

ps, thank you Haloscan for banning their posts.

2008-08-11T13:44:00.004+08:00

these pics are kinda old. was browsing my folder and saw these precious photos taken perhaps 2 yrs or maybe 3 yrs ago. whoosh, i was so kental back then. but baby was soo handsome and boboyyishh even till now. LOVES.

the one on the left is Abang Fazly (his elder brother)
N yes, my baby is the one singinn'. he's talented y'knw.

sugar, i miss you singinn' your heart out like that time.
lets go karaoke-ing okays?
not that the usual singin isnt good but i want to see your best. =)

fireworks-fall.
baby, you know i know (inside story). hehe.

there's nothing you can hide from me. i can tell whether you're okay or not just like how you understand me so well. Baby, i'll always be here if you need someone to talk to, and i have always been here just like you were always there for me.

2008-07-25T11:29:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my 3 years anniversary.
WEE!~ we made it, hunny.

through the sweet embrace,
and through the rough shack,
we manage to pull through it all.

we've gone high and low together.
this year was the lowest and roughest, i must say
broken up and patched up repeatedly,
but still, we got back.

lets make this worthwhile.
and grow old along with me yea?

i love you many many alot alot deep deep!!

2008-07-23T11:24:00.004+08:00

hello people.

im no longer active in any accounts - all of which i have deleted. of all the accounts, i'll be keeping this blog. i wont change links or whatnots just because of the presence of an imbecile who keeps leaving her unwanted pathetic comments. should i leave the tagboard alone or should i make this blog just a read-only blog that no one is able to comment?

oh well, i shall leave the tagboard alone for now. i wont make the rest of my alter ego suffer just because of the unwanted presence of this well-below-par-in-mental-acumen girl. i wont want my friends to be affected by this idiot also.

anyways, today is my sisters' birthday.
HAPPY 17TH ABBY!!~ Study hard for O's yea? can't believe you're 17. i feel so freakinn' old. anyways, hopefully, by turning 17, your sleep-kicking me will stop. shopping this saturdayy, want??

had family dinner to celebrate her birthday yesterday 'cause today, me and my brother couldnt make it due to work. dinner was at BaliThai at Suntec. after dinner, we made a pitstop at Swensens for ice-cream 'cause Abby wants. was surprised to see Marina working 'cause from what i knew, she can only work on weekends. and after that, we headed to Mustafa Centre 'cause my dad had to meet up with a client. oh and all of us saw bapok. haha. the tits can tahan - BIG le. haha. then headed to Shell to pump fuel and headed back home.

its been so long since i've had a decent dinner with my family. gonna buy abby's present at the end of the month with my brother. we're gonna split the cost. hmm.

gonna be working at Swensens later today. -.- i feel so lazy.

syitah. long time no hear from you. haha.
geeZie. no need to retaliate back to her lah.she's just an attention seeker.
beachbabe. i freakinn miss you. hope to meet u at abang shafiee's wedding.
shasha. HHAHAHAHA! i got no comments. but somehow,i agree with you. >.<

2008-07-22T23:24:00.005+08:00

o0o0o~ look who's angry now eyy. hahaha.

masok JC? haha. yea right. i'm sure it wasnt admission to JC, cause it was only the 3 months tryout JC thing. haha. that one bukan masok JC.

at the very least, im holding an advanced diploma which is recognised worldwide. and you? O levels only? si o no? hahaha. im blessed with the luxury living that my parents shower me with. i dont care if you label me as a rich bitch. unlike some people who not only think they're clever but in actual fact, they're actually dumb.

note this yea, in Singapore, without money, you go nowhere.

"oh law maner kau blajar? law kasi laki sundal puki kau"
- this is what you call an academic inclined person talking? haha. you gotta be kidding me.

even if you got the brains (or so you say), what cert are you holding eyy?
nothing right? hahaha. you fool! have you no shame?

eyy poor girl. dont talk to me when you aint got cash aite?

and me? childish? haha. say whatever you want lah.
hey, get this, I DONT GIVE A SHIT!

i'm taking over my parents' business soons.
too bad that girl got nothing in her brains as well as logically but still got the cheek to act big.she's one NATO bitch. (NO ACTION TALK ONLY)

send whatever crap to my parents? AS IF they're gonna entertain people like you.
i'm their angel. and they'll regard you as some girl suffering from an unknown down syndrome that cause you to babble trash. hahaha.

fortunately, we werent friends in the first place. so personally, i got nothing to lose. anyhoos, i got alot of friends already. losing this two hypocrites aint that big a deal. i still got more who are loyal. =)

to my wonderful readers, this will be the last entry that i'm gonna post referring to this no-lifer by the name of Rosiana Jumardi and Noorrezam Said. surely you people are sick of her name appearing in my tagboard right? haha. me too. sad aint it that she cant accept the fact that she's a dumb girl who is attached with a loser.rest well my readers.i know she wont stop with all this craps.she's too..how'd you sayy.. ohh. PSYCHOTIC!~ *nudge fyza*. hehe. good nite everyone. =)

2008-07-22T15:53:00.004+08:00

psst. ask NOORREZAM.

when he knew that i got beaten up, he called me straight and then said
"KAU BILANG AKU. KAU NAK AKU BUAT APE NGAN DIER? KAU KAWAN AKU."

eh puki, check with your konek first can?

never give up ehh.
me? only brave in blog? hahaha. looks who's talking.

seriously, what is your problem?

urgh. people like you disgusts me! so the malas wanna layan no lifers.
nothing better to do other than make people fight.

2008-07-22T11:10:00.006+08:00

haha. police entertain? hah. yea right. i study law and i know. oh and please, im not your dear. dont ever call me that. of course you and zam are laughing your ass out cause you people enjoy seeing other peoples' relationship ruined. but too bad, your happiness are just short lived cause me and my Hans are happy. better yet, your words about spreading that i'm not a virgin, its your mouth and those who are mature enough will definitely see that you're just some attention seeker. haha. i can see the future now. you in tudung and your friends, with faces so crippled, and still gossip like the world got no limits.

oh and yea, zam has been keeping things from you hasnt he? ahaha. he was the one who calls me when me and Hans broke up. see, how ironic things are eyy. your boyfriend was the one who is flirting with me. but hey, he's not my standard, so yea, i dont entertain him. oh and the time that this thing happened between him and koko, is the time when he met with the pizza hut crews late that night and he told me to keep it quiet cause you dont like the crews and it was late at night and blah blah blah. oh and by the way, during Namira's birthday party, i was keeping my distance from him yet, he was the one who came close to me and snap pictures of us close. dont believe me? want me to post up the pictures? haha. wait, i dont have to, zam got it all. why dont you ask from him?

look who's laughing now eyy. oh. me wake up? haha. girl, its YOU who has to wake up.

girl, even you said it yourself that your boyfriend is always contacting other girls - the pizza hut crew - and yet he doesnt let you contact other guys. c'mon girl, your small boy isnt that into you. perhaps what marina says, you should try to take it into consideration you know. see, people say beauty is only skin deep but that matters the most in everything. hmm.. perhaps some facial surgical makeover would do you good. =) see, now im advising you back.

i'm a good person. you advise me. and now im advising you. advising you to get a facial surgery.

anyways, i know you people enjoy other people's name being badmouthed about. seriously, i pity people like you. so shallow minded and i think you people are those type who suffers from maturity problems..hmm..what is it called again..hmm.. oh yea, mature deficit.

i'm really sorry for zam to have a girlfriend like you but hold up, after thinking it through, i think you both DO deserve one another. zam is such a crybaby and you, haha. there's no word deeper than the word 'lahanat' can ever describe you. cause girl, you're worth much worse than that.

and what? girl on girl? haha. are you serious? ooo, im getting hyped up already. no use talking and threatening me aite. and whats this about you getting your parents involved? haha. why? too much for you to handle? oh yes, back to the girl on girl. you're one skinny ass bitch and here you are trying to manipulate me using words? ooo im scared. hahaha.

c'mon words are nothing okayy. girl on girl, offhand uhh. thats more like it.

i block you and zam on msn is because you people are very longwinded and frankly, you're just wasting my time reading what you have to type out. you two really have got issues with your self-esteem and self-confidence. seeing people hurt makes you feel so great. haha. kinda reminds me of Liyana Haron - the girl who always keeps depicting her life as being perfect but sadly, she's one helluva hypocrite to even be friends with. oh you know what? zam and liyana ARE friends, ooh classmates to be exact. corny isnt it?

remember that time when Nicholas was asking the repeat-o level taker, Liyana, has she ever done sex and she replied that me, fiza and maria has done it too without even answering Nicholas's question. seems to me, you and Liyana are in the same boat. lucky for me, i distant myself from her since that day forth for being such a bitch to say such a despicable thing.

i guess i was blinded by the fact that zam was once my friend and thinking that he wont do such a thing. yea, i overlooked. its okayy its all right. he's a no lifer. and for that, i'm sorry for him. and for YOU, Rosiana, i dont owe you anything. and please lah. your threat isnt working on me. try it on zam's younger sister. i can assure you, it'll work.

reading on your 6 July post, seems that you've been creating issues with people huhs. tsk tsk tsk. girl, do you have a life at all? cause obviously, you dont. saying i got no pride and no self discipline and im thick skin? haha. girl, you need a mirror. seriously, a BIG one - enough for you to turn you back against it, and bend over and after that, see through the hole that your shit comes out which is called the ASSHOLE. dont mistaken it for another hole, you know, the hole that Zam has inserted his dick in, aww, you know, the one which is called Vagina. okayy. back to the asshole, after you see through your asshole, try to open it, or better yet, use your hands and stretch it side ways. in there, you'll see your brains. after which, use your hands and try your best to get it all out before your brains starts to fill up with shit. eh, wait. it already is. guess im too late. hahaha.

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS SKINNY BITCH.
cause it may run out just sooner than you ever think.

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ehh man, cousins outing will be based on the day you got your pay from Gloria Jeans. YOU said it yourself! oh and i hope you like the shirt and dont forget to pay back hor. i told abang already and he said ok but must see whether he working or not. you go contact with Narissa lah. i think on that day, i ask abang bring car lah. better for us to move around.

marinaa, i ade jugak pikir nak delete tagboard ni tapi kesian kan nanti si pompan ni nak tag ape ape kann. dier kan kaypo. nak tengok orang bual pasal dier tu pasal she keeps visiting my blog. i ni actually takde mase nak layan orang macam dier tapi kalau i tak layan, kesian pulak nanti orang tengok dier macam orang giler kan? haha. but for the SIA, i think i wait till my diploma certificate is ready for collection cause then, it'll be easier and higher chances for me to get in easy.

2008-07-21T15:44:00.003+08:00

i know its kinda like LATE. but im gonna rant it out anyways.

i just remembered. you cant make a police report about making false statements about petty things like these. even those pathetic fat officers wont entertain you. stuuupid sia.

ehh girl, if you wanna really threaten people, you should do your research first okayyy?

HAHAHA. STUPID SIA.

FUNNY KANN!!
WANNA THREATEN BUT IN THE END, YOU MADE A FOOL OF YOURSELF.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! ROSIANA ROSIANA.. TSK TSK TSK.. HAHAHA..
CANT BELIEVE YOU'RE THAT DOWNRIGHT STUUUPID!

2008-07-21T15:24:00.003+08:00

SO WHAT IF YOU THINK I'VE GOT A
DYSFUNCTIONAL RELATIONSHIP?
WHAT YOU THINK, DOESNT BOTHER ME ONE BIT.

AS FAR AS IM CONCERN, ITS PERFECT.

I LOVE MD HANIFFA BIN SULIMAN A WHOLE LOT.
WE ARE DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER
AND WE'RE HAPPY TO BE TOGETHER.

PERIOD.

2008-07-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

stop dirtying my tagboard with your craps please.

and no, my life aint that drama. or so she says calling me some drama queen. hah.

words like that dont hurt me. it really doesnt.

now, im contemplating to delete every single account i have and including this blog. i lost interest in blogging and updating my profiles on the internet. somehow, the more i update, the more people starts to discriminate me. some of which, for no apparent reason. which really is, stupid.

dont ask me about hans. frankly, since this matter arose again, we argued and the status of the relationship? i myself dont know. maybe i should really close my heart on love lah. this year really is one heck of a ride.

and i totally lost interest in working in swensens. i have my reasons. PERIOD!

the next interview for SIA Cabin Crew, i'm signing up for it. at least when i get it..eh wait.that doesnt sound right..hmm.. IF i get in.., i would be overseas and not know what hell is happening and i wont get affected one bit. and even if i do, before i know it, i'll be flying to dont-know-where.

i confess. im sick of this internet thing already.

haiya. whatever lah. bye

2008-07-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

eh please eh you people.

i got badmouth about you people or not in the first place? even if i did, it would just be cause of anger and then it'll just end there. it wont spread.

i dont go to Zam for comfort or in need of advise lah. kau pikir aku ni ape? nak kacau orang lain punye relationship? eh please lah eh. memang betol ah aku bual ngan lelaki lain sume ah tapi kan, aku tak bual ngan those yang da ade matair la ehh. i dont give a shit nor am i jealous that your relationship is smooth or whatever fuck lah. thats YOUR life, not mine. aku tak perasan lah yang dier ade gambar aku cumer aku tak suke lah sial. aku tak paya nak perasan diri eh. aku tau aku lawa. tak paya nak step lah eh. aku tak step decent eh babe. aku MEMANG decent. kalau memang kau tak kisah pasal aku punye life, yang in the first place, apesal biler aku dengan Han break up the other time, kau ngan zam yang kecoh kecoh and encourage me to move on? ape nak motivate? TAK PERLU LAH EHH.NOT EVEN YOUR PITY.NOT NEEDED. GET IT? YEA. NOT NEEDED. NADA.

you get pampered by love. but i get pampered by my freakinn credit cards!!
isnt it that freakinn obvious that we aren't chasing after the same thing?

i'm not desperate for friends. I GOT MY GIRLS. only that my girls and me have got our own paths and we do catch up on life once a while. i dont need guys to make me feel good about myself. even when my girls arent around, i still have my sister.

I DONT CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES' LIVES! GET IT??

tell you what la ehh.

EZAM , HANS, KOKO - WE SIT AND SETTLE THIS FUCKING SHIT OKAYY! ROSIANA DONT GET INVOLVE. UNLESS YOU WANA MAKE IT WORSE THAN IT ALREADY IS.

I take this VERY seriously.

oh and btw, i DONT fuckinn block you. i changed my number again. OKEH!?

oh oh, and ROSIANA, DONT YOU FUCKINN EVER DARE TO 'TSK' AT A KARANI!!! AND GET YOUR FUCKINN FACTS RIGHT BEFORE YOU START SHOOTING BLANKS AT PEOPLE!

oh and IM GLAD. glad that we're on the same page. cause neither do i want to be of friends with you. you added me in msn first. REMEMBER?

EH WAIT, U KNOW WHAT!?! i got a better idea. why not conference call. at least it doesnt affect any of my plans and schedules. 'cause unlike YOU gossipers, I DO have a life.

'CAUSE all i wanna know is :
1) WHO SAID IT?
2) WHO SPREAD IT?
3) IS IT TRUE THAT HANS IS OUT TO ONLY FOOL AROUND WITH ME?

THAT IS ALL! AND DONT FUCKINN SIDETRACK FROM THE TOPIC.
NO EXAGGERATION IS NEEDED.

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haiyaa.. i should have just continued my m.i.a-ing from this freakinn cyberworld. and even if there is people who are badmouthing about me, i couldnt really be that bothered. why cant you people just leave my fuckinn life alone?

between me and hans? haiya. i dont know what to say already lah.

for 2 years plus, i've been away from the cyberworld and now that i'm back, shit happens.

this is one of the reasons that i've deleted my accounts.

(edit/)

sometimes i feel a need to know the truth. but at times, i couldnt be bothered to know. reason is, once i know the truth, what can i do? it has already happened. my heart hurts with every word being said. i dont know who to trust. whose words is saying the truth. im not fuckinn popular. never do i intrude other peoples' lives. why do people still bother my life? what have i done wrong to you people? haiz. i dont know lah.

2008-07-17T16:07:00.003+08:00

it doesnt mean anything if the thing that you call 'FRIENDSHIP' is being betrayed. whats worse is when you talk shit about me to strangers. i admit, i do have a rocky relationship with Hans, but that doesnt give you the right to do that. you said you werent the one who sparked the topic, but hey, why the fuck do you have my picture in your freakinn' phone? i dont give a shit about who started the topic but AS A FRIEND, you should've stopped or perhaps change that stinkinn' conversation topic. you're a guy for god's sakes. if you're a girl, thats excusable lah cause every girl bitch about the other girlfriends' back. but for the love of god, BE A MAN!

when i first heard about that stupid thing, i called you straight cause your name was mentioned. i fuckinn' called so many times and you rejected it. why? feeling guilty aye? i had to call your girlfriend and your girl had to talk to you and then talk to me. what the fuck. your girl said you were trying to call that friend of yours cause you wanna ask him, why is your name being mentioned. hah. funny ah you people.

now your girl got the cheek to say that YOU try to give advise to me 'cause what friend of yours say is that MY BOYFRIEND is only out to fool around with me.

stop making things worse lah jackass.

now your girl posts on her blog :
'to korang who likes to fitnah my hubby eh. stop it sak konek ngan cibai korang. So u guys are back, tapi jgn uat taik kat hidop kiter, kiter tkde uat taik per kat idop korang, korang yg uat taik sendiri. dah uat salah, jgn pakai taik ah untuk cover korang nyer pantat. siasat dulu. korang pikir, matair aku byk time nak uat taik macam korang uat. puih! blah ah lu orang! sebelum aku get more harsher and confront korang. !'

Kalau memang kau anak jantan, kau tak akan tolak balak lah sial. you face the consequences. and if you're saying the truth, you wont be this freakinn' scared or dont even have the balls to talk to me about what actually happened. all you said was you werent at fault.

now you put your girl on the line. and here she is threatening me? WTF.

WHERE'S YOUR BALLS DUDE?
being the freeloading jerk that you are,
thanks for sharing MY life story to a stranger.

FUCK OFF. LEAVE MY RELATIONSHIP ALONE.

oh and btw, ROSIANA,
do me a favor will you? can you check in the pants of your so-called 'HUBBY' who goes by the name, NOORREZAM BIN SAID, and tell me, whether does he have a kotek or a punani okayys? oh, yes, not forgetting that YOU do need some attitude makeover. oh better yet, you and your 'HUBBY' should stop talking and interfering with other people's lives and start occupying your time playing HIDE-AND-GO-FUCK-YOURSELF! 'cause seriously, you both need to get a life.

2008-07-17T12:08:00.001+08:00

i wanna be with you

for a lifetime and more.

2008-07-17T12:07:00.002+08:00

HAHA. im on cloud nine.

boy, im craving for you.

2008-07-16T15:11:00.005+08:00

yesterday's meetup was very dear to me.

if its the thousand-th mistake, you know that i would still forgive you.
and even if its already the million-th time that we break up and
patch back together again, you're still the one i want.

cant seem to move on. cant seem to forget about you. i dont wanna live like this anymore. i love you too much that i cant bear seeing you with another. yes, i'm selfish and you belong to me. ONLY me. i dont give a fuck about the rest of the other guys. i admit. i admit that i'm one psychotic, insecured bitch who cant seem to let another girl to even talk to you.

i wear this ring and i am proud. proud that a relationship that was once doubted, scrutinized, criticized, spit at and look down upon is now starting to bloom back the way it was. i am aware that there might be abit of change going around but i'm up for it. you really proved and answered me what i have been questioning myself all the while. i know that you dont know what you did but honey, you dont have to know.

Md Haniffa, the reason i look forward to each every new day

ah, not forgetting. a date to celebrate the 3 years of being together, him tolerating my ego, my hardheadedness, my selenger moments, my harsh language and the anniversary.

24 July, CANT WAIT!!!

ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!

Woo!~ im super happy now.

and if there's any bitch in the way of my re-established relationship, i swear i wont hesitate to take her down. this i swear upon my grandfather's grave. it took me awhole lot of sleepless nights thinking and due to that, i have panda eyebags.

i'm gonna stand by MY MAN through whatever that makes him happy.
and it doesnt bother me that he may look at other girls.
'cause baby, I KNOW that none of those chibais can be compared to the goodies i got.
and sure as hell, he's blessed to be with me. =)

i wont tolerate to anyone who dares to diss about my man in front of me.

okay. im done. i wanna talk to my boo. you people, SHOO!

i only want you. nothing else matters.

2008-07-14T12:09:00.001+08:00

was bored. got some crappy dish.

If you've ever wondered why the females of the species go to the bathroom in pairs and ask "Do I look fat?" -- we've got answers.

Most men, at some point in their dating lives, have witnessed a woman do something that, in a guy's mind, makes absolutely, positively no sense whatsoever. And while it's tempting to throw up your hands and chalk up women's puzzling behavior to PMS or temporary insanity, we're here to say that, on the contrary, there is a method to the apparent madness. In the interest of helping men and women relate better, we've clarified some of the most mind-boggling mysteries of womankind -- so you fellas no longer have to sit there stumped, scratching your head.

Why do women always go to the bathroom in pairs?
No, our bladders aren't telepathically in sync. This bonding ritual allows us to compare notes about the guys we've been talking to. "Women hit the bathroom in pairs to chat about their dates and strategize the rest of the evening," says Donna Spangler, author of How to Get a Rich Man: The Princess Formula. Or, as Aurora, 28, from Miami, reveals, "We're calling dibs on which cute guy we're after that night." Basically, if some gals have just left your side for the loo, you can bet you're being scrutinized. And generally, that's a good thing and bodes well for your prospects that night.

Why do women expect you to pay the check even if they make more money than you?
Blame history, baby. "The traditional exchange between the sexes, for thousands of years, is that men offer money, protection and status to women, and in return women offer beauty, sex, and offspring," explains BJ Gallagher, author of Everything I Need to Know I Learned From Other Women. Adds Marilyn Graman, author of How To Be Cherished: "It shows you care, that you're interested in her, that you respect her." So pony up -- you needn't take her to the fanciest joint in town. Explains LaToya, 24, from Bellflower, CA, "Even paying for my dinner at McDonald's shows something."

Why do women feel compelled to fix up their friends with your friends?
This matchmaking impulse isn't purely about cultivating some great double-date prospects; it goes deeper than that. "Women provide the social glue that holds society together. We understand that humans are hardwired for relationships," explains Gallagher. "So women take it upon themselves to facilitate this process by playing matchmaker." And whether your buddy John and her pal Rachel end up in love isn't really the point -- what this boils down to is that you should be flattered. "It's a compliment to you," says Spangler. "She likes you and respects your judgment enough to think your friends are worthy of her friends."

Why do women insist on snuggling after sex?
"Because it feels good. Really," says Ashley, 34, from Houston. Need a more scientific explanation? "For women, sex stimulates a desire to be close and connect," says Graman. And while you might not feel the same way, there is a good reason for you to humor her. "It might lead to more sex," points out Liza, 27, from San Diego. So if you're raring for round two, give her a hug!

Why do women always ask if you think other women are attractive?
If we inquire about the hot factor of some other chick, we're basically feeling one of two ways. "Either very secure and just curious about what turns you on, or very insecure and in need of reassurance," says Lydia Hanich, author of Honey, Does This Make My Butt Look Big? A Couple's Guide to Food and Body Talk. Plus, as Gallagher points out, "Women are just as competitive as men," she says. "We're always assessing how we measure up, because we're concerned about keeping the man we have." But come now, you're not really interested in why we ask -- you want to know how to reply to this loaded question. "The correct answer," schools Aurora, "is always 'not as attractive/voluptuous/fit/insert-appropriate-adjective-here as you, my dear!'" Better yet, advises Hanich, refuse to play this game of counter-productive comparison and say: "Why would I look at another woman when I'm here with you? I'd much rather talk about how hot you are!"

Why do women ask, "Do I look fat in this?"
No, it's not because we want an honest answer about how we should lay off the sweets a bit. More likely we're just fishing for a compliment. "Sometimes a woman self-deprecates because she's in need of a little external validation," says Hanich. In other words, the only correct answer to this is some form of "No way, you look great!"

Why do women expect you to read their minds?
Sure, it's a tall order to expect a man to intuit if "something's wrong" because we're moping, or to figure out on your own what we want as a gift for our birthdays. But when you do hit the bull's eye, it shows you care -- and are paying attention to us. Meena, 27, from Woodbridge, NJ, puts it this way: "In our utopia, we would have significant others who know us so well they could predict our needs and frustrations without us having to spell them out." And don't worry, it's not as hard as you think: We will drop hints. Just keep a heads-up for things like "My friend Mary said that new Peruvian restaurant is amazing" or "I hear Norah Jones is coming to town, I've always wanted to see her in concert." That's girl speak for "Surprise me with reservations/tickets," guys. Spring them on her and you're golden.

2008-07-13T22:18:00.003+08:00

im contemplating to go back to school agains. yea. hard to believe? haha.

well, i must admit, even working at 2 places, i still have free time. wanna fill up my time to the fullest. dates will be minimized or maybe just none. work and studies will be maximized. someone said im working my butts off as if im earning fast to have money for marriage. haha. whhattt onlyyyy!.

i dont care for any companionships. seriously, i dont. haha. okay okay, of course the whole i'm-his-girl-he's-my-guy kinda thing IS sweet.but come to think of the negative side of the whole sweetness, nehhh, i'll pass.

im proud to have this single status. i can flirt with anybody with no limitations. its not that im taking advantage, but hey, its making the best of the moments of singlehood and looking back, saying to myself, 'im glad that fool and i ended, im having the best time of my life.'
and yea, i do expect lame ass bitches to come up to me and tell me how cheap i am and stuff. haha.

FYI,there is a FINE line between being tooo flirtatious and cheap.

okay. shall stop here.

2008-07-13T21:38:00.002+08:00

i gots lotsa people asking me about my nick cause it reads :

transforming your A-Cup tetas to voluptuous masterpieces? babe, even your giant culo aint no match for mine. HAH!

haha. okayy. actually something happened. and someone just cant seem to just appreciate her tush and whatnots and DARE enough to compare with my god given gifts. oh god. haha. are you kidding me? so yea, its just a little something something that someone somehow just couldnt resist my goodies and tries her very best to go on par with mine. haha. i dont care if you want bigger tush, but please ah eh, leave my name out. i couldnt even care less if you gots it upgraded to an E-Cup or gots that behind improved to the brazillian ass okayys. so yea, GET A LIFE.

my boobies + fy's booties = SIMPLY IRRESISTABLE.

haha. okayy crap.

psst, fyza, JOKING onlyy hor.

2008-07-13T21:05:00.007+08:00

Taken yesterday and today.

pardon the delay. bangkok trip pics still hvnt got from my aunt yet.

2008-07-13T20:05:00.004+08:00

haiz.. today is kak ani's last day. :( gonna miss her scoldings and her sterness and her voice when she's mad. =P heard that she was being asked to go Marina Square's outlet for attachment. yea, still near. but STILL!. she's the first person to introduce to me the place and taught me the this-is-for-what-and-what-goes-where-and-the-do's-and-don'ts.

yesterday's full shift really tire the hell out of me. hadnt got enough rest the night before. luckily today is only afternoon shift. Juani actually asked to cover for that Wady but i turned him down. bah! woke up at 10 and got ready and stuff. and hell, i couldnt find that stupid Micros card. i know where i placed it but its not there. shit shit shit. asked my dad to send me but he was going out already with my mom for breakfast, so end up, i went there by train. work work work. 5PM!, overjoyed! haha. shift finito.

called dad to fetch me. had to wait for 20 minutes cause my parents went house shopping. picked me up and then continued their house shopping. we went to dakota suite at kallang. my parents want the 4-bedroom unit and it cost 1.82 - 2 mil. its for 99years hold. my dad wants it but my mum was like 'for about 2 mil for a condo, i'd rather have a landed property'. then off we went to fetch my sister from Narissa's house.and continued house shopping agains. this time, near Tok Mur's house; Jalan Pergam. there was unit for sale and it costs 1.88 mil, negotiable.and my mum set the appointment tomorrow at 2pm.she likes the house and to her, the price is reasonable for a 4+1 bedroom 3 storeyed landed property.PLUS, the person who is incharge was my parents friend. haha. corny or what.

woo!~ i can picture myself in my OWN room, with a walk-in closet, with a king size bed and my crap, ALL to myself. abby will have her own room. yea babyy.

well,i hope tomorrow the people can seal the deal with the financial controller; MY MOMMA.

then my fantasy will become a reality. =)

i have no worries about my trip to and fro. my dad will become my personal driver. =D

2008-07-04T12:05:00.002+08:00

was a little late on meeting up with Fy.hehe.i had some problems with natures call.

oh and yesterdayy didnt watch Hancock withh Fy. instead, we went to Terminal 2 to meet up with Nurasz Love.felt bad cause it was rather last minute that we planned to meet up.Fy said Nurasz thought we'd be meeting up in the morning / early afternoon so she called up her boss, informing them that she'd be coming to work a little late due to some matters. only after that, she'd call up Fy only to find out that we were meeting after 5pm.

anyways, on reaching the T2, we didnt see Nurasz anywhere and Fy said she swore that Nurasz said that her store was beside Burger King. i was like still in doubt so being the silly me, i went up to the girl saying this

ME : umm.excuse me, do you know where is Cocoa Trees T2?
Girl : this IS the Cocoa Trees.
ME : oh heh. (paiseh already) umm. do you by any chance have a staff by the name of Nuraziza?
Girl : oh Aziza? she went for her break.
ME : oh okayy thank you.

then after that i told Fy what i said then she laughed at me after which, she whipped out her phone and called Nurasz, thinking that we can eat together.then found out that she was at T3. -.-

since Fy hasnt been to T3 before, and me haven't wandered around T3 besides the check-in row and the arrival hall, we took the skytrain to T3. we had see the directory trying to find that stupid Popeyes which wasnt being shown in the directory. Fy was like 'are you sure T3 ade Popeye?' - with her giving me the a little bingit look. i know T3 have cause when i was reading Bestie LiL's blog, she said she dined at Popeyes T3.

we went up to level 3 then saw the directory again and then saw POPEYE! it was at B2. ahaha. STUPID DIRECTORY! then we took the lift and went down. and OMG. it was so freakinn far. but it was worth it. Popeyes chicken is nice. :)

after we had our meal and wanted to go to the toilet, some woman looked at Fy's ass. haha. and Fy was ass-concious and kept asking me 'is there anything on my butt?' hahahah.

after we washed our hands, we headed back to T2. i think the proceeding back to T2 had me lost weight. bloody far. then we saw NURASZ!! hahaha. ooh. we gots free chocolates. mMMmmmMM. we joked, craped, laughed, and the never missed out gossipings and did help Dear Nurasz to stock up some chocolates. hee. oh and theres pink babi and black babi chocolates. haha.

lets make a proper meet up okayys. =)

i love you girls.

(actually i wanted to insert the picture taken by Fy'z DSLR but then she's not online.she's out with Boyfriend todayy.)

2008-07-03T11:38:00.004+08:00

i dont know why but guys these days seemed to rely more on lies to get what they want. hah. thats like such a cheap escape. im not saying that i dont lie. i do lie. but not till the extent of trying to make people pity you. thats just too much isnt it? what i dont get is that you got the cheek to tell me you've gotten yourself into a BIG mess.. stupid. then now, still in a relationship with that girl. haha. what the hell are you trying to do?

eh please eh. i dont need hypocritical friends like you in my life. why dont you go find yourself some other homosepian to have the time to care for your stupid ~~lies~~ (oops i mean) life.

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gonna meet up with bontot laters after work. gonna watch HANCOCK! Wee!~

pictures from Bangkok trip will be uploaded soons. not now. soon.

tag replies :
Neo: hellu there...nice blog.... Cheers!
Reply : Thanks.

farahin swensens: hey..wat a small werl..i noe tt fyza..haha..she use to be my class mate in MI...hehehe
Reply : haha. yea she told me toos. heh small world after all.

Shasha: i miss u babe. lets mit up.. after u're back.. muackz..
Reply : iyee.. nanti bile da set date, you turn down..

2008-06-25T21:19:00.004+08:00

please dont bother telling me if you see my ex dating someone new. i dont wanna listen. i dont wanna know. i hope this gets clear to everyone. i dont wish to know what my ex is up to anymore. upon wishing him 'Happy 20th' with never the thought of whats more the intent of scrutinizing him on his special day, and the reply i got from him was 'dont ever contact me at all.so plz,dont bother me anymore'. it was a sincere wish from me, it comes right from the heart. i did had an agenda planned out for him on his birthday, but it didnt happened. yes, even though between me and him aint good, i do still have this feeling of.. oh nevermind..

and yes, yesterday was the supposed 2 years 11 month anniversary with him. 24th of next month, the official 3 years. i used to be looking forward to 24th of each month to celebrate the success of getting through the ups and downs with him and its like a step forward that me and him has succeeded.

instead, now, i wish the date 24th of every month never did existed in my calender. it only brings memories of the happy times we celebrate from month to month and it hurts just to even think about it. frankly, i'm having a hard time trying to keep my mind off the memories. just the slightest thought of it will only cause me to breakdown and cry.

quite a number of friends told me not to close my heart and give up on love just yet. perhaps Hans just wasn't the one for me and maybe its better if it ended now and not later when everything gets much more complicated.

haiz. dont rush me. i'm not ready.

i was blind to see that you needed a change

PS. Fy, i've changed my blog song. i hope you're addicted to this one like how you're addicted to Rihanna's Take A Bow yea? then when we hang out, i wanna hear you sing out loud!! if it helps, we'll sing together yea? hehehe.

2008-06-24T15:04:00.003+08:00

i give up.

i dont really know whats in the mind of everyone and truthfully, i wish i could be telepathic. pathetic as it seems, i had been wishing for that since i was little. i think the bangkok trip really coincides with the condition that im in right now. i guess i deserve to pamper and spoil myself.

hah. i remembered during my secondary school days. everytime i break up with a guy, i'll tell my mom that i wanna go bangkok then on friday of the same week, before i know it, i'll be off to bangkok with my whole family. bangkok IS our 2nd home 'cause we do have a home there. dirt cheap shoppings with cheapass food, tell me; which girl is stupid enough to not get over or perhaps relieve herself in this paradise? if ever there is existence of such girl, i think the girl is very cuckoo one.

anyways, SyuraSan, babysisters' BFF will also be joining us on this shopping trip. WOO!~ think of the madness that me,abby and her will create.haha. momma and mummy will forever gossip one. then there's us the threesome. hee. my dad will join us the next day.

WOO!~. CANT WAIT!

today is the last day that i'll be working... for this week. haha. ohh and by the time i get back from bangkok, paycheck come to mee!~ i wonder how much will i be getting from Swensens.. well, i havent been marking the days that i've worked on my calender - my mistake. bleah. oh and payy from my momma. =D

oh and yea, finally, after much thought, i guess its best if i just let go of my N73 Music Edition. gonna be selling it off soons. dont really know how much i could get also. im quite upset cause my Samsung G800 has PERMANENT scratches, on the VIEWING SCREEN!! omg. well, my mistake (AGAIN) cause i placed it in my bag; in the same compartment as my name tag and then the pin scratched the main screen. ='(

my momma said i was careless. haiz.

2008-06-24T13:47:00.002+08:00

i belong to no one,you dumbass!!

i'm not trying to make excuses, baby
wont change the fact that you're gone.

2008-06-24T01:59:00.000+08:00

JAZA: babe!! its been a long time i drop by.. :) stay pretty always okay
Reply : Heyy girl.. :) you stay pretty toos hunnyy.

Abby: cann2..but distract him for me :D
Reply : No need. i gots 'em back already. :D

cranberrysoft: was just bloghopping.are u troubled?
Reply : umm.. im okayy. :) thanks for askingg.

2008-06-16T12:43:00.001+08:00

Too often we don't realize what we have until its gone,
Too often we wait too late to say 'I'm Sorry, I was wrong.'
Sometimes it seems we've Hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts;
and allow foolish things get to tear our lives apart.
Far too many times we let unimportant things get into our minds;
and by then usually its too late to see what made us blind.
So be sure that you let people know how much they mean to you.
Take the time to say words before your time is through.
Be sure that you appreciate everything you've got
and be thankful for the little things in life that means alot ... :)

2008-06-16T11:42:00.003+08:00

when the topic is on Haniffa, i would very much appreciate it if YOU would stop dissing him on my blog. 'cause hey! this is my blog. and i dont my blog to be full of shits.

i didnt know my love life was such a big drama that everyone is also into it. respect my privacy please. yeah i know this is a blog which i rant to but still, privacy is still privacy.. would you like other people to invade your privacy? no right? its like 'your own space'. everyone needs that.

please eh. stop all this nonsense. its getting very very very annoying!

oh and to the tagger 'ANON',
why do you care so much about my relationship with Haniffa? im guessing you're a girl cause what i know is that guys dont diss girls at tagboards and create unneccessary attention. you know, if you like him so much, why dont you tell him?

to fix;
who are you?

to er;
thanks for standing up for me but, who are you?

to bbkins syitah;
tkmu create unneccesary arguements can?

to shidah;
same boat? IDTS. your story and mine are totally different, girl.

to abby;
go get my credit cards back from baba. then can go okay? i need shopping!!

2008-06-10T16:20:00.001+08:00

i wanna fall in love again.
and try to be the best i can..

2008-06-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

you know, its hard to tell who has your back; from who has it long enough to stab you in it. but it hurts to know that you'll never remember the things i'll never forget.in life, its either you speak the truth or lie and cheat.alongside to it,in the satirical mimicry,life is a divined chaos in which i'll have to embrace it.chaotic in the sense that making babies is now being known as a form of art, depends on how you look at it; making babies or making art. wtf. its like when you're right, no one remembers but when you're wrong, no one forgets.anyhoos, its easy to keep a small girl's mouth shut,you buy her a barbie doll and she'll be happy for awhile, but thats not how it is when you grow up.

and who are you to judge the way i live. i know im not perfect; and i dont live to be.
but before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean.

and personally, i believe everything does happen for a reason. people change so that i can learn to let go,and when things go wrong, i'll learn to appreciate them when they're right.i also believe that through lies, i learn to trust no one but myself and sometimes, good things fall apart for better things to fall together.

what i heard from friends is that you can only push a girl for so long until she walks out of your life on her own,so make sure this is what you want because when she turns around, she isnt coming back.oh and they also say that never jump to conclusion cause the shit of what you heard about me might be true, but it could also be a fake as the person who told you.but to be perfectly honest, you're the only person i love. and it scares me more and more everyday. yea,hands down,you're the best thing that ever happened to me. im fighting myself to get you out of my head but im still hanging off of every word you said.

ps. remember our dreams

haiz. the problem with everyone is that they still see me for who i was and not for who i am now. for those people who think they know me...haha,i forgive you.. i'm a good girl. seriously i am. not a good girl with alot of bad habits but just a good girl.

and now,as im contemplating the contradictions of life, there's three things that i learnt; GIVE UP, GIVE IN or GIVE ALL YOU GOT.

and right now, im stumped!

2008-06-05T16:07:00.003+08:00

PICTURES FROM MOVIE + DINNER DATE WITH BABYSISTER ON 1JUNE08 AFTER GOING TO KAK IDA'S AND BROTHER'S FRIEND'S SISTER'S WEDDING.. HEHEHE.

ENJOYYYY!~

this pic isnt linked to the above date with babysister.
but this was taken at 2am in the morningggg.. was sleepyyy..

oh and psst! I PASSED MY FTT!
oooohhhhh WWEEEEEE!~

2008-06-01T01:29:00.002+08:00

you know..its funny how easy you can spot the irony in front of your eyes but then you just dont want to admit that its a fact because it hurts the fucking hell out of you? hah. typical how they say that at times, you ARE blinded by your feelings but yea, you still refuse to confess.

been quite awhile since im single and yea, im still struggling to cope with it.

i'm always used to the 'i-will-always-be-there-for-you' attention type of thing from just one guy. but now, its just me,myself and i.. being independent and standing on my 2 feet to support myself and to bring up myself to the way i want it to be.

truth be told, i do miss the past. haiz. nevermind.
nobody would understand.

i guess i never really moved on

2008-05-30T17:05:00.002+08:00

if you're bored, with nothing better to do..

visit this link :

http://lepak.tv/play.php?vid=547

due to that video, i had my dad to wait for me under the void deck
yesterday to accompany me in the lift up to my home. heh.

it still play in my mind. now im wondering whether the umpteen times
that i've felt like there's someone behind me in the lift is just a feeling
that my mind is playing or just true.

its taken at Raffles Tower. lift serving from 12-30 ( i think )
coz i know i took that lift ONCE in March due to meeting up
with my client on the 26th floor.

2008-05-26T13:14:00.003+08:00

I was bored. so did abit of surfingg on the research segments..

here's what i found out..

CHEATING

When you learn by loss, you see repercussions for your actions.

A marriage or relationship absolutely can withstand cheating.

One-time cheating still breaks a bond of trust in your relationship, but affairs are much more emotionally vested than a one-night stand.

People cheat because they're selfish, immature or narcisstic. Or they're excitement junkies and attracted to the drama. They put their needs ahead of others and rarely blame themselves why they cheated in the first place.

JOBS AND BIRTH ORDERS

First-Borns:
More conscientious, ambitious and aggressive than their younger siblings, first-borns are over-represented at Harvard and Yale as well as disciplines requiring higher education such as medicine, engineering or law. Every astronaut to go into space has been either the oldest child in his or her family or the eldest boy. And throughout history -- even when large families were the norm -- more than half of all Nobel Prize winners and U.S. presidents have been first-born.

Famous eldest children include: Hillary Clinton, Bill Clinton, Richard Branson, J.K. Rowling and Winston Churchill. And macho movie stars are First-Born, too, including Clint Eastwood, John Wayne, Sylvester Stallone, Bruce Willis and all the actors who have played James Bond.

Middles:
Middle children are more easy going and peer-oriented. Since they can get lost in the shuffle of their own families, they learn to build bridges to other sources of support and therefore tend to have excellent people skills. Middle children often take on the role of mediator and peacemaker.

Famous middle children include: Bill Gates, J.F.K., Madonna and Princess Diana.

Youngest:
The youngest child tends to be the most creative and can be very charming -- even manipulative. Because they often identify with the underdog, they tend to champion egalitarian causes. (Youngest siblings were the earliest backers of the Protestant Reformation and the Enlightenment.)

Successful in journalism, advertising, sales and the arts, famous youngest children include Cameron Diaz, Jim Carrey, Drew Carey, Rosie O'Donnell, Eddie Murphy and Billy Crystal.

Only Children:
Only children have similar characteristics to first-borns and are frequently burdened with high parental expectations. Research shows they are more confident, articulate and likely to use their imagination than other children. They also expect a lot from others, hate criticism, can be inflexible and are likely to be perfectionists. Well-known only children include Rudy Guiliani, Franklin Delano Roosevelt, Alan Greenspan, Tiger Woods, tennis' teen queen Maria Sharapova and Leonardo Da Vinci.

Twins:
Because they hold equal status and are treated so similarly, twins turn out similarly in most cases. Consider advice columnists "Dear Abby" and "Ann Landers" (Abigail and Esther Friedman), and Harold and Bernard Shapiro, who became presidents of Princeton University and Canada's McGill University respectively.

2008-05-25T09:26:00.002+08:00

yesterdays' full shift really can kill me.
11 hours straight jack. haha. okayy. 30 min of break. haha
but omg. so the busyy.

my brother fetched me. and yea, HE'S SUPER LATE!
at the round-a-bout was filled with couples and ALOT of mats
plus, i was rather windy and i didnt bring my jacket!!

aiya.. i'll update laters.
gots to go bathe.. working again..
bleah.

2008-05-25T09:10:00.005+08:00

TAG REPLIES

fy: pls k. i like mr deepak! wei, y move hs, where?
Reply : i like him toos. his eyes macam wentworth kann. piercing!! my parents are sourcing around for a bigger house. but my mom is kinda reluctant. kinda stil 50-50 now. :(

geeZiee: woi beachbabe.freak off larh.hahaha.seybok jek geeZiee.kalo tk pasal ni beachbabe,i wun noe tasha even got a blog.
Reply : ehh Ziee.. heh. sorry tak bilang gue ade blog..

Maman: aww is was CO*k SIAH

Maman: lol beachbabe. u do sure know how to use your tongue... and u sure know how to make enemies dont you?? u like it huh... all i can say is get a life... **** siah to think such people exist in dis world

akugiler: sorry to flood your taggie. the only way i can make things clear to you and beachbae or whoever who thinks im freaking rude. sorry.

akugiler: and as far as im concern, i didnt notice or thought tasha thinks i was being rude or unfriendly. im totally opposite of that. anyway, apologise from me to tasha.

akugiler: and to beachbabe, good friend you are to stand up for tasha, but i dont think you need to go to that limit of asking me to suck **** or whatever cos i did nothing wrong to you.

akugiler: so yah, tasha, you can ask maman or faly what kind of person i am. i didnt know that the first tag sounds rude.

akugiler: sh*tty **

akugiler: im not here to find enemies. i'll love to make even more friends. maybe you thought the way i tag sounds ****ty and i sound unfriendly or rude, but you dont know me and somehow,thats how the way i are

akugiler: i dont even know tasha, so i dont find any reason to hate her or be rude to her, i have never seen her before, so i dont see why i should envy her beauty. maybe we start of a wrong track.

akugiler: so yah, perhaps you guys shouldnt be assuming things next time. and dont judge things without knowing. adding to that, dont screw me like as if i knew tasha.

akugiler: i think everyone is misunderstanding things here. just wth did i do? i was just asking who she was and how she got to know of my blog. and so i found out that she knew my blog from maman, her cuzz.

beachbabe: FARKERRR geeZiee.pity tasha.cos of u see tasha taggie dirty.wait confirm she say 'idiot laaa you ppl' ahakz. she evrytym like that one.

beachbabe: oh BTW,your banner pichure is such a turn on.is that your leg on dat guy's chest? if it is, im killing you! you always get the hot ones.

beachbabe: tasha sweetheart, why do *****es hate you so much?i personally tink dey envy your beauty honey....too bad you envy mine.ahakz.cheerios babe.see ya tml after werk kae?MWAH!

beachbabe: akugiler - EH JNG NK STEP BESAR PAT NI BLOG EHK.MENTANG2 TASHA BAIK2,KO NAK PIJAK KEPALE DIYE KAPE.SAP KONEK AR SIAL

REPLY : Beachbabe - WOOIIII! dont exaggerate cann or nottt? waliao ehh. the nora is my lil cousin's gf le and she's Maman's colleague. stupid idiot. now my blog dirty sia. KNS. you better stop dissing people on my taggie okayys. talk to you soon; coz we REALLY NEED TO TALK!!!.

REPLY : AkuGiler - heyy, i apologise for all the accusations okayy. yea, you tak bersalah. sometimes the way people read and how people intend it to sound is far different but i hope you and me can clear this thing up. anyways, all the best with my Falyy yea?

2008-05-23T12:41:00.002+08:00

YAYYYY!

GONNA SHIFT HOUSEEEEE!!!!

2008-05-22T22:33:00.003+08:00

parents are off to Bangkok tomorrow.
i need to celebrate! haha.
okayy but they'll be back by Sunday. =(

tomorrow also is my first Mandarin Lesson.
takot takot le. GAHHH!

Saturday and Sundayy will be workingg. =P
blearghhh

oh and saturday, since parents are off to Bangkok
and big brother will be working.. i was forced to attend Abby's
MEET-THE-PARENTS-SESSION. URGH!

oh and did i tell you, on Sunday 18 May 08, Mr Deepak and family
dined at Swensens Suntec. hah. and i was the one serving him drinks.

ahhh crap. looks like this Saturday, i will be seeing him (AGAIN) at Abby's school.
argh. haha. Mr Deepak; the discipline master who caught me bringing a baseball bat
to school in 2003 and the one who always approach me about my attire till i graduated. bleah.

David Cook - i hate youu.

2008-05-21T12:37:00.006+08:00

a message i got from Mr Ex Boyfriend today at 12.36pm :

hahaha.wat an idiot.going ard telling ppl how bad i am n asking 4 sympathy.u r whu u r.so fuck off bitch.aku ckp sini abis sini.aku tak mcm kau gie type sume kat blog.

tsk tsk tsk. i pity people with such a shallow and dysfunctional brain like him. does he even know the meaning of a weblog? it means an online diary la stupid. which obviously means that i can just rant anything i want to.even if it means to talk bad about how you treated me. im not asking for sympathy - UNLIKE YOU. you go around telling girls how sweet you treated me and how harsh i was to you. GAWD! GET A LIFE WILL YA? of course my friends also knew how bad you treated me and how bad i treated you as well. my friends know me well enough that i dont get upset and cry everytime bad things happens. but i get EVEN. i make sure i get my sweet revenge.

oh wells, i cant blame him for the lack of basic knowledge that he has (including his IQs and EQs) - the curse his first ex girlfriend (NurShimaliza) gave to him. or maybe due to the accident he faced late last year, the impact went up to his brain which caused him to have some biological malfunction. haha.

2008-05-20T17:43:00.003+08:00

i've had enough.

thought you'd changed. but i was wrong. AGAIN.

from this moment forth, my priorities will be as such :
1) ME! and my wants.
2) FAMILY.
3) STUDIES.
4) WORK.
5) GIRLFRIENDS.
6) GUY FRIENDS.
7) AQUAINTANCES

im so wrong in even giving you the slightest hope that
we'd be together again. i know im at fault. wont say sorry.

but anyways, FUCK YOUU!!!

im not saying i wont be in love at all anymore because, who knows,
through me busy working and doing my stuff, i might just find my boy
someway somehow.

no matchmakes. no fakes.

2008-05-20T14:23:00.002+08:00

biggest mistake ever : SPILLING ICE-COLD WATER ON CUSTOMER

NOT floor. but customer.
hahaha.
i nearly pee-ed in my pants due to the shock. XP

2008-05-20T14:03:00.002+08:00

NaNa sUgArPiE: hey dollz... dropping by here, take care kies..
Reply : hehe. thanks sweets. :)

HL: Take good care of yourself! Don't overwork! :)
Reply : i will. dun'ch worry about me too much oteyys?

shidah: cool... thanks anw... gd luck in ur new workplace...
Reply : sorry tauu.. :)

boisachok: gal....me add u @ msn oke?
Reply : err. NO. sorry. yea you might add me but i've blocked you. :D

2008-05-17T13:07:00.004+08:00

last nite was tiring; no doubt bout it.

finished work at 11pm. and suntec really was deserted.

didnt sit for the whole 5 hours.
i think i can cope up easy.
only that the carrying of many of their glass plates
is the only obstacle. - HEAVY!

i havent been doing the chores at home.
then over there need to sweep.
i was like 'uh-ohhh' haha.

but its okay lah.

i think if this goes on, i can lose weight. =))

okayy. im gonaa go rest (AGAIN) noww.

ciao

2008-05-16T11:08:00.003+08:00

yesterday was quite a bore. sitting at home and just watching TV.

but i wasnt happy. Syesha got kicked out. hmph! David Achuletta was suppose to go out. he sings like karaoke. then whenever he sings, his nose hole will flare. what bestie said is true; his votes are based on his cuteness. bleargh. David Cook is OK lahh. he seemed abit..how u'd say.. err.. abit too boastful uhh. okay lah i biased. hehe. dont care.

but it just isnt fair.

'cause everything means nothingg, if i aint got youuu~

yesterday night, bestie wished me all the best for todays' first day of work
while Kye messaged me at 1am this morning. :)))

oh well, today is gonna be one tiring day; my prediction.
im soo anxious. Gahh.

and since today is the first day, i think i'm gon get bullied.
all i can do is just hope for the best and hope that they wont
be tooo hard on me. =X

2008-05-15T15:07:00.001+08:00

i CAN live without guys.
i dont need ya'll attention to live my days by. neither do i need praises.
i dont need you to carry my bags for me.
i dont need you to tell me how nice my smile is.
i dont need you to tell me how feminine i am.
i dont need you to tell me how well-mannered i am.
i dont need you to tell me how cute i get when im angry.
i dont need you to tell me how nice i smell.
i dont need you to tell me how spendthrift i am.
i dont need you to tell me when to stop shopping.
i dont need you to tell me how i suck at being showing my affections.

but you know, the main thing is; I DONT NEED YOU!

oh before i forget, thanks for the heartbreak.

2008-05-15T12:40:00.005+08:00

thats it ah. im done with guys.

you freaking neurotic species are all the same.
fucking hypocrites. compulsive liars and best at turning tables.
not forgetting that you're one manipulative bastard.

when im nice, you take advantage. you bloody mofo.

but when i stand firm, and have my feet on solid ground,
you say im hardheaded and start scrutinizing my every move..

WTF?!?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PPL HUH???

oh please. dont tell me i need an attitude makeover.
NEVER talk to me that way. you dont even have respect
towards me and you dare say that?

have you no shame, dickhead?

2008-05-15T12:37:00.002+08:00

babykinns: well bt u cnnt challange me... on g 2yrs singlehood.. ;p
Reply : 2 yrs?! that one very far for me to reach. hehe. dont think i'll be single THAT long. few months; okay lah i can take the challenge but if 2 years? i surrender first. =P i've NEVER been single for more than 2 months back in 2005. bleah.

2008-05-14T12:04:00.004+08:00

im glad that Zameer and i has gotten back in contact. and yea, been on 2 dates with him - the last one being that i told him to speed up but he's all like 'speeding is dangerous tasha. dont worry. your dad will understand. if he doesnt, he can call me'. heh. well, it happened on 8th May 08. my curfew was at 9.30pm but then i got home at 11.20pm!! hehehe.

watched harold and kumar at Cineleisure. and yea, as usual, since he was late,we got into the cinema late.the movie finished at 9.after that, went to simpang bedok - spize - to eat.thats when we both got carried away with the conversation.i didnt notice the time till i wanted to take tissue from my bag and i saw my watch 11.05pm! hehehe.

and yea, thats when i told him to speed up but he was reluctant to.till at Bedok View Sec, he told me to hold on to his pockets coz he said he'll speed but i gotta hold tight. so i just grab lah then he like marah, he said 'TASHA! thats my cardigan. my jeans pocket lahh'..well, i have to admit, my hands were shivering. oh i didnt hug him like those typical minahs okayy. i held on the sides of the seat. so much for the speeding. that road all the way got traffic light. evrytime stop stop stop. at the swimming complex, i was shouting 'GOOOO!' telling him to beat the red light to make a right turn. but he turned behind, looked at me (i duno whether he jeling at me or not) then he looked in front without saying a word.

anyways, heh. by far, friendship with him been okayy considering he's 25. yea. 6 year gap. funny; he doesnt act like those 'abang-abang kind' and yea, he gave me his word that i can count on him and he'll support me in everything - provided that it makes me happy. :D i know i dont trust guys but knowing him since 2006, his words are acceptable to me. im not being biased. i told him that i gots the job at swensens and he was like happy for me. and his only concerns was if i'd work my ass off, i wont have time to enjoy life itself. =X

---------------------------------

as you all may know, i do change my Friendster shoutouts and my MSN personal nick once in a while, and yea, most of ya'll think i found myself a new guy or sometimes, think i miss the ex. but no lah. both are wrong. there's no new guy. and between me and ex boyfriend, i did try to end it properly but he stil wana hold grudges against me. hmm.. oh well,i couldnt really be bothered about him lah. he wants to hate me till death also his pasal lah. i dont care already.

im slowly phasing out in love. heh. good eyy. and yea, someone challenged me. he said i couldnt stay single for long. hah. im up for it. previously was til the month of october. yea my birthmonth.. but im very confident of myself that i extended til december. yea. til end of this year. thats how determine i am to not get into a relationship. =) its different lah if back in secondary school days. that time you call me a playgirl also i dont care coz i know how i was back then. but now, i've grown out of it. childish lah come to think of it.

by far, no one has captured my attention and heart. :) some say maybe coz i raised the standards too high. hehe. like beyonce's song, 'baby lemme lemme lemme upgrade youuu..'

Love is a losing game

2008-05-14T10:38:00.004+08:00

babykins: babyboo hu is adam? :)
Reply : babykinnns, babyboo duno who adam.. maybe some freak.. i'll stay true to myself :) if i got like someone, you'd be the first to know kayys? i wont leave you clueless.

adam: add me in ur msn okie? adamiscool@hotmail.com
adam: be my gal n u wun be dissapointed.
adam: i noe ur sgl bt wanted u to noe dat i cn b de guy dat is better den ur ex if u gif me a chance.
Reply : err. sorry. im not interested to be in a relationship which is why i've occupied my free time to work part time. but anyways, thanks for the interest in me. and no, im not adding you up in my msn. i got many friends already. if i added you up,you might think that you may have a chance but no. so yea, stay away from me. you can tell me that you can be better than my ex (be it in terms of looks or financially or character) or you may have the biggest dick ever but still, the answer is NO.

2008-05-13T20:15:00.003+08:00

fy: meet up soon leh.
Reply : yupyups. will check whether i need to work on saturdays or not.lom tau my schedule with swensens yet.

Ezad Pandir: u gt a lot of nice pic I LIKE.... hehehehe
Reply : :))

syitah: den date w me when?
Reply : dont angry-angry lahhs. i know we only had 1 lunch date. will keep you posted kayys sweetie.

2008-05-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

YYYEEEEAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!

i gots the part time job at Swensens Suntec!
dum di dum dum dum.

i start this friday 16th May. =)))
im so bloody happy lahhs.

so this friday, right after work, then straight shoot
go Suntec.

i might be working on both weekend days. great or what!
hehehe.

hmm.. okayy. one obstacle; i duno whether i can blend
in with the other workers nott. :/

2008-05-12T22:13:00.005+08:00

the buffet. no food yet. haha.

here's part of the set up at 6pm (indo time). before my client starts to stampede to the event venue.

and here's me. in my work uniform. =)
edited. =) before the lifeguard came over and started talking.
10th May. 5am (indo time) i dont look like i had a hangover. hah.

me and mummy (my aunt). after we had breakfast at the hotel.
no its not the real one. its a can opener

my dad. his shaven-head has grown hair.

this is when i got bored. but i like the lights. nice.

2008-05-12T20:15:00.009+08:00

here are some of the pics that i left out. i dint edit any. malas loh.
all are Fy's shots. still gots somore but still error hehehe.

2008-05-12T12:39:00.002+08:00

i've decided to start changing myself. coz seriously, i dont quite like the new me.

first off, my lifestyle.
my schedule is no more gonna be packed with dates. instead, i'm gonna work. yea. including the weekends. after my work at my parents', i'm gonna work til perhaps at 10-11pm. its gonna be part time. all of it is gonna be nightshift. and for Saturdays, it would be left untouched coz i do still need to do my shopping. Sundays, i will work from morning to late evening.

first interview for part timing is Swensens at Suntec. i did called up at Changi Airport T2 but then, kinda think of it, its gonna be quite dead. if at suntec, at least there's many other shops. my other choices for part time jobs would be Gloria Jeans Coffee, Thai Express, Carrefour Cashier, Banquet at Grand Hyatt/Meritus Mandarin.

plus, i gots to save up for my prac and some money for the insurance payment of my car. yea, i've planned ahead. im not as shallow as you think. and my world does not evolve around guys. its kinda insulting hearing that i couldnt live without guys and dates. WTH! but y'knw. its okayy. i dont have to prove to anyone anything.

now, i'm gonna live my life. just the way i like it.

oh and if i get the job at Swensens, i'd be freakinn happy. i wont get to see my parents face evrytime. and at the very least, i can wake up early on Sundays (which i know is very rare), and have something to look forward to; WORK to earn. heh.

and perhaps, if i dont wish to date anyone on the saturday, i'll just work on the saturday full day. and i get some extra buckeroos.

so yea, im minimizing my dates and my expenditure. gots to start saving for my future plans already..

2008-05-12T12:38:00.002+08:00

shidah: *passerby
shidah: btw taz & fy, i got an unknown person tagging at ma bloggie. name passery.. he/she sounds sarcastic but friendly at the same time.. check it out k...
shidah: haha... eh fy, asl? isit coz its scul nite?
Reply : just jgn layan that 'passerby' lah. idiot. and about ur bday clubbing outing, i dont think my parents kasi pergi taus.

hantuu: hiee.. =)
Reply : heyyyy.. da balek ehhs?

a fren: hey.. wat happen to ur hp? been contacting u bt no response... wat happen?
Reply : my hp is chucked to i-dont-know-where. i malas wana text ppl.

fy: i dun tink i can come leh
fy: er no. pls eh dun melepek leh
Reply : i oso dont think i can make it. you girls know how strict my parents are about this right?

2008-05-10T22:11:00.004+08:00

one night at bintan was sooo freaking fun. haha. my god. i smiled alot. and yea.. almost 90% of the time. when i was at bintan ferry terminal, the bintan rep talked to me..when i was at the hotel, the bell boy talked to me for a long time. we joked and laughed. well, i had to take head counts of the group and when they have yet to arrive, i planned on listening to my mp3 but then this 3 cute bell boys started smiling at me. so, as a friendly gesture, i smiled back. after that, when i dropped my hp (NOT intentionally), one of them was bending down arranging the luggages, and he helped to take it for me. after that, conversation starts. yadda-yadda-yadda. hahaha.

during the preparation at the Ripples PoolSide, the banquet boys and the DJ equipment boys started talking to me. DJs were from singapore. haha. they were in their early and mid 20s. and yea, talked ALOT. AGAIN. haha. and when the funtion was going on, i went near the pool and the lifeguard started talking and all.

omg. haha

well, they all did flirt. and well, as a libran, i shall not be in denial that i didnt flirt back. haha. i did have fun ~~flirting~~(whoops!) i meant talking and making friends. hehehe. there's about 5 of those indon guys that kinda caught my eye. if only i could import them to Singapore. hehe. and perhaps, sell them to girls. okay. im so merepek.

i did get drunk last nite - with my dad's approval, thank you very much. i dont know how much i consumed. we were all laughing and screaming. my dad went back to the room of course. god. i didnt feel like its a job at all. this group very bochup one. stayed up til 2am (indo time) then head to room to sleep. woke up at 5am (indo time) to get prepared at the front desk counter and to coordinate the.. aiyaaa. do job lah..

blearghh. im so tired now. argh. tomoro got prac.

2008-05-08T17:17:00.002+08:00

shidah: hey anw, abt our date on my bdae? which plc to go is the best? i haven deciade yet.. my bartender suggest double O. fy..!! tempat kau...!! haha..
shidah: omg.. u upload all the pic tat fiz took... haha.. i had a great time tat day.. love ya both..!!

* hehe. i had a great time toos. =)) oh yahh.. date on your bdayy.. if dbl O, fyza confirm ON punyee. haha. nanti jumpe ngan the same guy yang nak grind2 ngan dier ehh. ahahaha.

2008-05-08T13:18:00.002+08:00

this is why im contemplating to delete my facebook account. the no. orf requests i havent yet accepted. the inbox messages. the bla bla bla.. erggghhh.. but my flirt page is on the rise eh. the last time i checked was 6000 points le. hah. crazy.

2008-05-07T12:20:00.002+08:00

you know what?
Robert Downey Jr. kinda looks like my sec 3 & 4 form teacher : MR HAMDI.

i didnt have that in mind. till abby said she didnt like Iron Man coz he looks like Mr Hamdi.
funny but true. hah!

2008-05-06T23:21:00.005+08:00

on Friday 2May, went out with Mr Zameerius. heh. on the way there, we talked. my mouth got wind go in,so my mouth was like always dry and he teased that i'd be looking like some camel with their tongue moving all over the mouth. tsk. anyways, wanted to watch the Iron Man but tak jadi. coz all were full. so then we both headed to PastaMania. we chatted and walked out of Cineleisure and sat outside Cheers and start commenting on peoples' dressing - all of 'em negative. and we saw quite a few cheenah girls, struggling to walk coz they were wearing heels and we can see its killin' them.

after that, sent me home. and yea, he forgot about his cigg that he told me to keep and hand over when arriving at my place. but yea, i forgot.

and thats how i gots myself the Marlboro Red (for FREE) on 3 May outing with my girls. hehe.

oh and btw, im pissed off with the fact that girls - as young as 15 year olds and as old as 26 year olds - sending me hate mails in Friendster stating to back off from (fill in the guy name here). so yea. if im avoiding you, i hope u know that one of your girl or should i say 'Boo', was the cause for it.

2008-05-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

zimzim: wah, its great to see my former schmates back together and have some gatherings. How I wish I could be part of it too. heh!
Reply : hehe..well, the next outing will be in June. there's gonna be Hweeli, Shuwen, Fy, Shida & myself. not sure bout the rest. but im guessing all girls lah.hehe.sms me if u wana join. but the date is not set-ed yet.

fy: zomg. u put every pic up. hahahhaha
Reply : hehe. yea.. some tak pasal ade error biler nak upload. duno why. also, pls remind me to set the picture size to a smaller size.. its 7M and its too big le to upload anywhere.

a fren: hey rinn... u sure are smoking alot nowadays.. try not to ya.. u shld knw y... cheers luv...
Reply : Norman rite? hehe. well, i wasnt. till i met my girls. then temptations took over.

2008-05-04T15:17:00.017+08:00

3 MAY 2008.

GIRLS DAY OUT.

far east toilet.

yea.. thats fizaa hahaha.

somehow, i like this pic of her.

whatever you do, dont enlarge this pic.

but if you do, heh. i got choc stuck in my teeth.

ITS THE DARN GOOD MC CAFE BROWNIE LAHH!!

2008-05-01T20:44:00.003+08:00

i love long talks on the phone. yea and even though my sister picks up most of the time, i got lotsa comments that she sounded more of being the older one and i sounded like some 6 year old girl. and now i know what a strawberry shruddle is (i hope its the right spelling). haha.

i cant believe it. im listening to smooth love songs again. funny how it seems to be rather unexpected. normally i would cry. and yea, listening to K-Ci & JoJo's - Crazy does reminded me of Hans holding my hands, crying and asking me to forgive him and accept him back. it was in bus no. 7. it was such an emotional moment there. how sweet and how sensitive he was, sigh.

but yea, i figured it was too good to be true. he said i was different when im with him and when im at home (not with him-physically), im a total different person. well, yea. look at yourself too. but you know.. im sick of bragging about the past.

its all said and done. and obviously that shit did not last.

game recognise game; i can do the same thing.

i admit that i do have a rocky past. but it does contains bittersweet memories as well.
and i thank Mr Md Haniffa Suliman for that. take a bow for you were once my lover.

a wise man i met during my work in Osaka, told me :
learn through the journey of the past, and know the hardships of the present and
only then will you know the vision of your future. - Naim Turk, Director. Market Researcher.

2008-05-01T20:24:00.002+08:00

Psst.

hehehe.

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen
In the blink of an eye

Thought the chances to meet somebody
Like you were a million to one
I cannot believe it, you're one in a million

2008-04-30T17:20:00.003+08:00

there's so much work. arghh. wana see what im up to?

im so bored. gahh.

zameer's sick and gots running nose. told him to stuff tissues up the nose but he said it still drips. and and being the smartass, i advised him to use TAMPONS!

hehehe.

ohh,and one of the blogshop owner made me upset. the tube dress i ordered kena cancelled so she refunded me back my buckeroos. haiz. wana know how the tube dress looked like?

i feel like cryinggg.. it went out of stock.. her explanation was:

Hi Tasharina,

We are sorry to inform you that theres a miscommunication between us and our suppliers such that they did not keep the pieces we ordered from them. So we have to do the relevant refunds , pls kindaly provide your account number so that we can proceed with the immediate refunds . We really apologise for the inconvenienced caused.

sad le.

2008-04-27T17:26:00.002+08:00

yesterday's expenditure was wayy over. mum asked how many times did i swiped the credit card, and i just replied "3 onlyy uhh, ma". she was quite relieved. well, i can assure you, her relieved-ness wont last long, heh, not till the credit card bill comes.

anyways, i dont know what it was that i saw last night but i can assure you, it scares me like hell coz Abby was scared and they were all crumping near us. well, it has certainly changed my views on being scared. im no longer scared of ghosts when you're comparing with those moshpits.

and i met K-RooL and i must say, he's a decent young lad. heh.

got back home by cab coz i cant wait to sleep. i was soo tired from all the walking and shopping. well, it did take my mind off the things up in my head which has been bothering me for quite sometime now. haaa. im so broke right now.

oh. i met an old friend last nite at the gig. Ewan. knew him through Temasek poly's Design Camp. he called my full name and i was quite surprised that he still can recognise me. when i saw him, i know that i know him but i couldnt seem to remember his name and where i'd known him from. well, bumped into him on 2005's National Day at Esplanade. i was with Hans and yea, he tegur-ed me back then toos.

and now, i got to know that Ewan is friends with Kye. hmm.. small world.

2008-04-26T22:45:00.003+08:00

Fy, im selling that hp off coz im so used to my N73. plus,my N73 is the music edition and theres so many songs i can store up in there. imagine this, im always used to having 2G. now kena shrink to 1G. plus, idk how to customize the hp theme to my liking. i dont even know whether it can be customized or not. bleah..

talked to Zameer on the phone last nite. i think it was like for over an hour. haha. and he still thinks i just turned 17!! lost track of my age. oh, and that conversation left all unanswered questions i had 2 years ago, finally answered! and i got to know how lies really made the world go round and leaving other people hurt and confuse. and yea, he stil skates. hmm. i think the last time i talked to him was before he and his ex-beau,Izzati, became an item.

oh wells, nothing lasts forever. even lies.

P.S : Zameer is my ex-classmate of Diploma Class DIBEM 0612A (2 freakinn years ago). he's not someone who just anyhow added me in Friendster. i was only 16 when i got into that class - the youngest! oh, him and calvin still calls me Princess Tasharina. =) wee!~ always gets pampered back then.

cuttin' off all ties

2008-04-25T13:17:00.006+08:00

(edit/ i've decided to keep it. sorry ya'll)

Hi ALL,

i'm selling off my Samsung G800.
Colour : Black Charcoal.

PERFECT CONDITION!!
STILL BRAND NEW.
3DAYS USE ONLY.

NO SCRATCHES & NOT FAULTY
OPENED UNIT TO TEST HP
1G micro SD
Rear & Front Camera

Features :
3.5G, 3G,
Bluetooth, GPRS, Integrated Camera,
Java, MP3, Polyphonic Ringtone, Tri-Band, Video Camera

Camera Features :
-Choice of shots
* Single Shot
* Multi shot
*Mosaic Shot
* Frame Shot
* Panorama Shot

-Choice of picture size
* 2560 x 1920 (5M)
* 2048 x 1536
*1600 x 1200 (2M)
* 1280 x 960 (1.3M)
* 640 x 480

- Self-timer
* 3sec
* 5sec
* 10sec

- face detection

-3 times optical inner zoom

-Choice of surroundings
* Auto
* Daylight
* Incandescent
*Flourescent
* Cloudy

- Choice of effects
* Grey
* Sepia
* Negative
* Antique
* Watercolour
* No effects

- adjustments of exposure value.

WARRANTY UNFILLED
still able to change one-on-one with Starhub till 29th April.
Bought on 21/04/08!

EMAIL OR SMS me to negotiate for price and for more details!

F.Y.I,
- outside market selling off for $680.
- Starhub selling for $798 (no plans!)

i'm looking at $600.
email to negotiate yea?

2008-04-25T11:14:00.002+08:00

i just learned something..

even though sometimes fiction is stranger than truth, people do cheat on their partner, be it the guy or the girl. its the sweet temptation of sexuality and personality that causes these mistakes to arise.

well,..

LAWS OF ATTRATION = WHAT MEN THINK THEY WANT + WHAT'S REALLY IRRESISTABLE.

2008-04-24T17:05:00.003+08:00

THIS IS ONE FUNNY SHIAT YA'LL!! read up!

MAN LAWS

1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella.

2: It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances:
(a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master.
(b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse.
(c) After wrecking your boss' car.
(d) One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into
"The Crying Game".
(e) When she is using her teeth.

3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies.

4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours.

5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her.

6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.

7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even
remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly
optional. At that point, you must celebrate at a
strip bar of the birthday boy's choice.

8: On a road trip, the strongest bladder determines pit stops, not the weakest.

9: When stumbling upon other guys watching a sporting event, you may ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's playing.

10:You may flatulate in front of a woman only after you have brought her to climax. If you trap her head under the covers for the purpose of
flatulent entertainment, she's officially your
girlfriend.

11:It is permissible to drink a fruity alcohol drink only when you're sunning on a tropical beach ... and it's delivered by a topless model and only when it's free.

12:Only in situations of moral and/or physical peril are you allowed to kick another guy in the nuts.

13:Unless you're in prison, never fight naked.

14:Friends don't let friends wear Speedos.
Ever. Issue closed.

15:If a man's fly is down, that's his problem, you didn't see anything.

16:Women who claim they "love to watch sports" must be treated as spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to drink as much as the other sports watchers.

17:A man in the company of a hot, suggestively
dressed woman must remain sober enough to fight.

18:Never hesitate to reach for the last beer or the last slice of pizza, but not both, that's just
greedy.

19:If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you'd better be talking about his choice of beer.

20:Never join your girlfriend or wife in discussing a friend of yours, except if she's withholding sex
pending your response.

21:Phrases that may NOT be uttered to another man while lifting weights:
(a) Yeah, Baby, Push it!
(b) C'mon, give me one more! Harder!
(c) Another set and we can hit the showers!

22:Never talk to a man in a bathroom unless you are on equal footing: i.e., both urinating, both waiting in line, etc. For all other situations, an almost imperceptible nod is all the conversation you need.

23:Never allow a telephone conversation with a woman to go on longer than you are able to have sex with her. Keep a stopwatch by the phone. Hang up if necessary.

24:The morning after you and a girl who was
formerly "just a friend" have carnal, drunken
monkey sex, the fact that you're feeling weird and guilty is no reason for you not to nail each other again before the discussion about what a big mistake it was occurs.

25:It is acceptable for you to drive her car. It is
not acceptable for her to drive yours.

26:Thou shalt not buy a car in the colors of brown, pink, lime green, orange or sky blue.

27:The girl who replies to the question "What do you want for Christmas?" with "If you loved me, you'd know what I want!" gets an Xbox. End of story.

28:There is no reason for guys to watch Ice Skating or Men'sGymnastics. Ever.

29:Pull out

We've all heard about people having guts or balls.

But do you really know the difference between them? In an effort to keep you informed, the definition of each is listed below.

"GUTS" is arriving home late after a night out with the guys, being assaulted by your wife with a broom, and having the guts to say, "are you still cleaning or are you flying somewhere?"

"BALLS" is coming home late after a night out with the guys smelling of perfume and beer, lipstick on your collar, slapping your wife on the ass and having the balls to say, "You're next!"

We hope this clears up any confusion.

i guess through this series of 'MAN LAWS',
its no wonder i stumble upon guys like Hans.
WORD! ahakz!

Personality

2008-04-24T16:31:00.001+08:00

IQ TEST

2008-04-24T16:24:00.001+08:00

2008-04-22T19:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday night chatted with Calvin. he asked bout Hans. and i told him the whole story and then he said that its about time that i got rid of Hans. then last night, Zameer sent me a message through Friendster asking what happened to Hans. and after i gave him a short sypnosis, his reply was :

'your still young tasha'

chill tasha i am not goin to say that
i am on ur side f.y.i
besides ...
wat i am going to tell u is that ...
he dont deserve u ...
and that U surely will , infact find someone
waaay much more beta ....and thats the fact

besides hes not the only one thats good looking
theres millions...

hows school?
wat course did u take?

=DDD

and yea, i hope everyone get the message that my number 91993963 will be terminated in less than 24 hours.

hmm..lets see how many numbers i had ehh
1. 9040 9517 (M1-line)
- used since pri 6 till sec 2.

2. 9052 9396 (Singtel-prepaid)
- early sec 2 til end of sec 2 coz maman wanted to use.

3. 8141 2262 (Starhub-prepaid)
- early sec 3 til Jan 2006. I MISS THIS NUMBER SO MUCH. so many historyy.

4. 9199 3963 (Starhub-line)
- I LOVE THIS NUMBER!! haiz. i'm gonna miss youuu. had you since 23 Feb 2006 - 23 Apr 2008.
its like calling the police.. so many '9' hehehe. but the number nice le. haiz..

and now, i have a new number. which isnt as nice as my previous but it'll be fine.

Kak Hairanee said '...btw, y do u change ur no.? tukar bf eh?'
heh. I WISH!

i'm single; CALL ME!

2008-04-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

im so stressed out.

THATS IT! I'VE HAD ENOUGH!. this saturday..

IM GOING SHOPPING WITH BABYSISTER.

CREDIT CARD!! GET READY TO GET ASSWIPED!

so KYE, tell me what time you'll be performing..oh and i need 2 tickets.
my babysister will be with me..after you perform,we'll be shopping-ing..
your babybrother will be there too rite?

oh that reminds me, cousin apit & maman will be there also. GGAAAHHHH!

you never learn..

2008-04-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to argue.

anyways, dad bought me a new phone. SAMSUNG G800; a photographer's choice. well, thats what it says. its gonna be soon that i'm terminating my current line (xxxx3963). even tho i loved that number to bits, i gots to surrender it already. well, too many people already know my number. and some people just dont know that i need some privacy.

YAYYYYY!!! - i dont know for what.

my heart pain le. haiz.

2008-04-21T21:13:00.001+08:00

fy: hey baby, most likely 3rd is confirmed. unless i have last min family outing or something. other than tat! its confirmed!=)
Reply : YAAAAAYYYYY!!! I SWEAR I'LL HUG N KISS N SMOOCH N TOUCH N I-DONT-KNOW-WHAT-ELSE-TO-SAY WHEN I SEE YOU OKAYYS BOO.

REDWAN: link me aite??
Reply : Sure.

hantu: im back. but not for long at the moment. I'll be going thailand tmorw for 3 weeks for some **** training. will get in touch with you soon aite. tke cre baobei~
Reply : YAAAYYYY!!! make sure you tag or what when you get back hor.

2008-04-20T12:31:00.003+08:00

i've had you and you had me since 24 July 2005. yea, there were sweet and romantic memories in which both of us shared but looking through all these moments i had with you, deep down, i'm filled with hurt and despair. you said that you would forget all the mistakes and faults but i know that this would be momentarily. sooner or later, accidental flashbacks will cause us to be back in square one. i wont lie; i still love you from the bottom of my heart.

it took you almost 6-7 months to admit that you liked me but for others, hardly even 3 days, they already confessed to me. the future we talked about and the way you hugged,kissed and held me close to you, i do want all that. you're really one-of-a-kind. but how can we proceed to that if right now, my insecurities are beyond your control?

there isnt any guy out there as good-looking as you, and not be as romantic as you. its hard for me to move on thinking about all these and whats more when you're with another girl and showering her with the love and giving her hugs and kisses you used to shower upon me. yesterday you said that you were gonna fight all odds to get me back because i belong to you. its not that i dont appreciate you but its just too hard for me to get back to you..

bukan i nak main2 kan perasaan you jugak. i mintak maaf kalau the happiness you had yesterday was short-lived. haiz. typing all these is making me cry. haiz.

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SAYANG YOU, YOU PAHAM TAKK???? i sayang you!! tapi asal you dulu tak take my feelings into considerations. why did you ignore my feelings? why did you prioritise your friends before me but expects me to prioritise you first? asal you kene tipu me? asal? asal? asal? ape i tak cukop bagos untuk you sampai you kene bual and klua ngan pompan lain? you cakap i lawa sume tapi asal somehow or rather aderr jerr nanti you mention pasal pompan lain? you cakap you sensitive, abeh i ni tak ke? i da bilang ngan you siang siang yang i pon sensitive kann bukan you sorang. haiz

i tanak jadi macam your shima. im NOTHING like her nor am i like 'KAK NOR' okayy.

haiz. asal seh you.. asall??

i geram. i jealous lagi biler tengok orang lain nye relationship work out and is longer than ours. why cant we be better than them? WHYY!?!?!?!

every 24th, reminded me of YOU.
it always have been. :'(

2008-04-18T14:51:00.002+08:00

went out to lunch with Syitah darls just now. we went to Banquet Raffles Hospital. =P met her at Keypoint's POSB bank first before proceeding to the Banquet. and the weather is so freaking hot! i swear i was sweatingg. when i was buying food, Liqiang called. then when i was eating, Redwan called. and when i was nearly finished eating, Hans called. yes. the ex-boyfriend. i was shocked myself 'cause he told me he wont ever call me again. he wanted to say something but he held back after i told him i was at Banquet having lunch with my girl. after sending off Syitah near Diners, i went to Concourse Starbucks 'cause my momma wanted something to munch on so bought some cakes. oh and the one of the barista there was a cutie. heh. he smiled at me. :P then go back to office and work work work agains. then i smsed Hans, asking what he wanted to say and he replied 'Huh?'..

LERR. -.-' step tak tau pulak.

nevermind....

2008-04-17T17:11:00.002+08:00

im sorry for the earlier post in which i use too much profanities. i know where i stand and sure as hell i know who i am and what i am. and yea, people such as my exboyfriend is such an ass.seeking sympathy from other girls to get attention.what a desperado.

frame me for all the wrong you did to me. i dont care 'cause as far as i'm concerned, i'm DONE with you. i closed the door on you and to my surprise, lot of others opened up. so did my eyes. they say to treasure the memories and whatever, hmm.. well, in this case, memories are all just based on lies.

its okayy. its alright.

wed, 5 mar 2008
a friend told me "tasha, this is the time that you can search for someone up to your standard and up to your expectations. get yourself exposed in the society. this is the time that imperfections is something you cant tolerate. so girl, i know you can do better. your status and your beauty is way up high. and for guys like Hans to have you, he must be one lucky bastard. you are turning 19 this year, tasha. time is running out for you. be wise tasha, choose wisely. its your future that you are gonna live by it day in and day out. so please tasha. i can only advise you. but its all up to you to make that difference."

the friend is Jenny. back then, i didnt understand what crap you were talking about but now, i know and FULLY understand perfectly.
thanks precious.

2008-04-17T16:23:00.000+08:00

YAYS! Big Bro Ian can contact me already.
I'm so bloody happy lahh.

2008-04-17T14:56:00.002+08:00

i'm suppose to be going to HongKong tonight. but nahh, i wanna be with my loves.

parents actually allowed me to go.

nvm, i'll take my chances. i wanna be with my friends.

2008-04-17T00:12:00.004+08:00

YOU'RE AN ASS!!

I REGRET TO EVEN FALL FOR YOU AND EVEN ACCEPTED YOU BACK! I REGRET TO LET YOU IN TO MY HEART ON 24 JUL 05. YOU SICKENING BASTARD!! YOU PLAYED WITH MY FEELINGS UMPTEEN TIMES IN THE FIRST 8 MONTHS OF THE RELATIONSHIP! YOU ALWAYS HAD YOUR WAY BACK THEN AND NOW, KARMA BITES YOU IN THE ASS AND NOW YOU PORTRAY THE SCENARIO AS ME BEING THE UNFAITHFUL BITCH IN THE RELATIONSHIP!

FUCK YOU HANIFFA! FUCK YOU!

EH, DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER THAT YOU STILL WENT TO KTV WITH HOSTESS, TALKED TO GIRLS, WENT OUT ON DOUBLE DATES, GONE CLUBBING ETC.. AND WHEN YOU ASKED ME WHETHER I WAS OKAY OR NOT, I SAID 'DONT GO' BUT YOU STILL WENT OR IF ITS NOT THAT, YOU WOULD TELL ME IN THE MORNING THE NEXT DAY AFTER WHAT HAPPENED AND IT WILL LEAVE ME HURT AND HANGING.

IF I KNEW, I WOULD'VE PLAYED HARD TO GET TO SEE IF YOU WERE TRUE SIA.. BAIK AHH.

EH HANIFFA, YOU SUCCEEDED OKAY! AND PLS AH.. STOP TELLING ME IM BEING CHILDISH.. YOU'RE TURNING 20 AND YOUR CHARACTER, HUH.. GROW UP LA.. FOR ONCE.. BE WISE!!

KAU NAK PORTRAY THE PICTURE AS ME BEING THE UNFAITHFUL ONE AND THE ONE WHO DOESNT APPRECIATE YOU, THEN BY ALL MEANS, GO AHEAD..

YOU'RE A DICKHEAD!!!

I HATE YOU!!!!

TO EVEN THINK THAT YOU'D BE AT LEAST BE TRUTHFUL TO ME, HAH! YOU PLAYED ME OUT, YOU MADE ME LIKE A FOOL, YOU MADE ME FEEL SO STUPID AND STIL NOT ENUF? STILL WAN TO TELL EVRYONE I PLAY YOU OUT?

FUCK YOU! IM SO STUPID I DIDNT LISTEN TO MY FRIENDS WHEN THEY TOLD ME TO LEAVE YOU ON FEB 11 2006. YOU'RE REALLY DESPICABLE!! DA LAH BUAL WORLD! SKRG DA BOGEY BEH NAK SETIA NGN AKU?

YOU MOTHERFUCKINGIDIOTBASTARDDICKHEAD!!!!

I REGRET TO EVEN KNOWING YOU AT ALL IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!

AND TO THOSE NO LIFE BITCHES! DONT PRETEND TO KNOW EVERYTHING WHEN YOU JUST HEARD ONE SIDE OF THE STORY.

LAMEASSMOTHERFUCKINGCHIBAI'S !!!!!!!

2008-04-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

i know i whine. i know i complain alot. i know i see more of the negative side instead of enjoying the bright side. Neither of the guys in Friendster is my boyfriend. i dont act cute and neither do i communicate with guys with girlfriends and even if they do send me messages in Friendster, i do reply them, but i keep it short.

Come on la girls, im not after your guys. there are many koteks out there other than your boyfriend and whats so special about your boyfriend that i would wanna snatch him away from you? what? good-looking? loaded? good character? that may just be your criteria for a boyfriend but mine still has many other criterias (note the 'S' at the end) of which he has to meet. you live in a 3 Bedroom HDB flat, while me, in a 5 Bedroom HDB flat. you have to go out and search for a job with just 'N' level cert? but i already have a job, furthermore, its my own family business and i'm expecting my diploma certificate to arrive soons. you need to save your ass off to get yourself a branded item or maybe just a TopShop undies? but anything i want is all being paid for and i dont have to worry whether it goes out of stock or not because i'm blessed with 3 credit cards for my own shopping needs. you commute everywhere with public transport, and i admit,i do too but whenever im tired, i can just ring up my dad or my bro to fetch me. your family doesnt own any vehicles but i do. my dad owns a Mercedes Benz passenger van Vito 112 while my brother owns a Mercedes Benz limited edition C200.

so tell me how 'ALIKE' we really are,

cause i am DYING to know..

to the rest, im not showing off okayys. i'm just trying to prove my point that i'm not your average girl-next-door that you can just tick me off. PERIOD!

2008-04-16T15:38:00.000+08:00

i got no comments for the below (YET!)

Guys dont care if youre
friends with other guys.

But when youre sitting next to us,
and some random guy walks into the
room and you jump up and tackle him,
without even introducing us,yeah,it
pisses us off.

It doesnt help if you sit there and
talk to him for ten minutes without
even acknowledging the fact that we're
still there.

We dont care if a guy calls OR TEXTS
you,but at 2 in the morning we do get
a lil' concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 am.
that it cant wait till the morning.

Also,when we tell you youre pretty/
beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning,we
freaking mean it.

Dont tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is
confidence.

Yeah,you can quote me.

Dont be mad when we hold the door
open.Take Advantage of the mood Im in.

let us pay for you!
dont "feel bad" We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.

Smile and say "thank you."

Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know
somebody's looking, we'll be more
impressed.

You dont have to get dressed up for
us.

If we're going out with you in the
first place,you dont have to feel
the need to wear the shortest skirt
you have or put on every kind of
makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not
what you are.honestly,i think a girl
looks more beautiful when she's just
in her pj's.or my shirt and boxers,not
all dolled up.

Dont take everything we say
seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.See the
beauty in it.

Dont get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your
bible.

"Dont talk about how hot Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt,or Jesse McCartney is in
front of us".It's boring,and we dont
care.You have friends for that.

Whatever happened to the
word "handsome"/"beautiful"

i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who
greeted me with "Hey handsome!"instead
of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or
whatever else you can think of.on the
other hand Im not saying i wouldnt
like it ether.

Girls,I cannot stress this enough:if
you arent being treated right by a
guy,wont wait for him to change.ditch
his sorry ASS,he's a disgrace to the
male population and find someone who
will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when
youre at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even
when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you,no matter
how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what theyre
doing just to look you in the
eyes..and say "i love you"..and
actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you AGREE

Girls repost this if you think it's
CUTE

Every Guy who isnt a jerk will agree
with this,so we hope that all the
girls that read this will repost this.

*Holding Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand,
gently bump into it a couple of
times.
Guys :Grab it if it happens more than
once.

*Cuddling
Girls :When you want to cuddle with
him,tell him youre cold
Guys :Automatically move closer to
her.

*Loving each other
Guys :When she tells you she loves
you,look deep into her eyes,give her
a peck on the lips,and tell her you
love her too..And mean it.

*Laying below the stars
Girls :When youre both laying under
the stars,put your head on his chest
and close your eyes as you listen to
his steady heart beat.
Guys :Whisper in her ear and link
your hands with hers

2008-04-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Big brother Ian is gona disembark on a journey to the jungle from tomorrow onwards
and he wont be able to contact me till thursday or perhaps on friday.

:'(

i managed to talk to him awhile just now cause earlier when he called,
i was unavailable. - heh. sorry deh.

he said he couldnt sleep and i said that maybe he misses someone.
and he said he misses his momma. aww.. so sweet. hehehe.

anyways, hope the orang utans, semuts, slugs and whatnots be your
companion while you're out there without your handphone bro.

di dekat engkau,

aku tenangg..

2008-04-13T20:08:00.002+08:00

i personally bought you that t-shirt there.even bought it in the colour that you liked.and all i asked for is just for you to accept it because i specially bought it for you before we fought.and its from Japan and its quite unique.now you're saying thank you and saying you like the gift?how can you like the gift when you pushed it away, asking me to give it to my guy friends? said that you would only accept it if i were to be with you but.. haiz. i know that we're no more together but i bought it when we're still together and would like you to have it. i cant take my brother's size for you coz his biceps are super big due to pumping (you know that right?) so i took one size smaller. and i know it can fit you nicely.since you dont want it, i've decided to discard it away.i wont give it to another person when i already bought it for you.if that person were to wear it and upon me seeing that person wear that t-shirt,you know this feeling of like going to that person and asking that person to take it off coz its suppose to be YOU wearing it.

but nevermind. you rejected the gift. i respect your decision.

im upset.

GO AWAY!!

2008-04-13T14:43:00.004+08:00

Wednesday, March 19, 2008
No one can ever stop you from doing what you want, cos at the end of the day, the decision lies on you. We know ourselves best. And I believe that the best decisions made are mostly from the heart.

Nobody's perfect. But I guess the value of the decision is more important than the outcome.

fylovesyou;at

hmm..did some bloghopping to Fyz's and her above said post does mean alot about decisions ey.

life is sooo full of choices that in return needs decisions which would justify your way of life. and at times, you would end up disappointing the people around you or maybe just be an upset of your own self. its hard trying to balance up everything and you cant even live up to your own happiness.

i've learnt that decisions need time to think to make sure you have made the right choice and not just follow your heart because it also involves you to think things through to see and weigh whether its worth.

also, i know my love life is pretty much fucked up. but i hope you people leave my love life alone. im sure yours would be very much the perfect kinds but you know, the world doesnt evolves around you. i may have everything and have a fucked up love life but at the very least, im still standing tall. and im solo now. i know what you may think.. 'alaa..confirm nanti dier balek ngn Han'.. think and comment whatever you want okayy.

i wont know the future.

okay. i gots to start studying. toodles.

2008-04-12T23:32:00.004+08:00

i succeeded in making it blur in surrounding and focusing my hp only.im so proud of myself. =D

the lamp. hehehe

all no edits. hehehe.. the clarity. mmmm. i love my baby D60.
and for those, D60 is NOT a bra cup. its Nikon Camera model okayys.

oh oh. now i gots 'em bangs. no more long fringes. my momma wana do like last time. she said it looked nice on me.

2008-04-12T23:04:00.005+08:00

okayy here are tag replies.

you people fight between yourselves and i dont know why. but nvm.

syitah: UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Reply : update alredy.hehe. your wish granted. :)

syitah: lunch 2gether from nt wk onwards???
Reply : will have to see whether im busy or not..your travel media dekat ngn muhibbah kan? pat plaza parkroyal nye arcade mall situ kan?

NaNa sUgARpIe : niways, this is my new link tau.. drop by when u reach home oreadi k dearz. take carez, juz live life the way u like. n everything will remain fine!! aja! all the best bebz
Reply : i did drop by and i couldnt tag. entah duno why le. n yea,i'll live my life the way i like it. =) you too.. all the best. it was nice talking to on the phone while i was on my way to the airport.

NaNa sUgARpIe : AIYOH.. kecoh nyer.. cian tasha.. buatbodo sudah lah ngan tag2 drg.. gado sendiri2 seh.. hahx. klakar aku tgk drg nyer tag.. cam budak2.
Reply : haha. kecoh? totally.hehe.duno lah.but nvm..i appreciate their negative views.

shasha : babydoll, pictures of akid is up at my blog. much love darling..!
Reply : seen it. LOVE 'EM!

shasha : babydoll, i miss u.. pictures when u're back key..
Reply : pictures not that much darl..

shasha : to anonymous: if u say she's a minahrep, i ask u ONE simple question. Would u like to try out her temper? TRUST me u won't like it. Try her out n u'll get to see what hell she can give u.
Reply : tasha minahrep. weewitt!~ ahahaha. tak leh imagine sia.. aku jadi minahrep?confirm kental punye kind sak..

shasha : to supporter: dun say tinx wen u duno the whole real truth. jgn sebok jage tepi kain org. jage tepi kain sendiri.
Reply : hmm..

Someone : To babe,Its true. I support u. Cmon. Open ur eyes tasha. Open up. ur confused now. ur not thinking. dnt fall for it nomore.
Reply : i guess i was rushing and didnt give it a full thought before jumping in to a relationship. btw, thanks for the thought.

syitah: grl tag tak perlu ehk... btw il miss u fro 2nite til 10...plsbring me my osaka boy k
Reply : Girl, osaka boys sombong uhhs. takpe. korean boys are better looking.. i'll try look out for you IF im going there. kk? i want one myself.. hehe..

babe: and to tht anonymous who said she was a minah rep...go and suck your father's dick BIT*H !
Reply : yea..anonymous..read her 7 last words OVER AND OVER AGAIN..!! hahaha

babe: he's a loser and YOU know it
Reply : :/

babe : (to supporter) FUCK OFF. you don't even know what or why we don't like 'hans' .Don't try to support their rltnshp. ITS DEAD. and tasha you know you're better off with someone better than him.
Reply : you know its like hard for me to move on coz my previous relationship couldnt even by pass for 5 weeks. and me with him,its over 2 years..and its kinda hard to let him go..and thanks for the concern =)

2008-04-12T22:34:00.004+08:00

okay..me and babysister is pretty much stuck at home today..well, my parents were already off to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal at 10am (my brother send them off).yups,parents are off to Bintan for smooching and to revive the passion..hahaha. no lah..they're going there to finalize another incentive group's agenda's and requirements which is going to be 9-11 May.they're only off for one day.and they'll be back in singapore perhaps around 7-8pm tomorrow?

hah. anyways, my brother's working night shift today so my parents already planned ahead. they are putting my grandparents to overnight at my house coz my mum is concerned about me sneaking out of the house late at nite.

oh and bestie, the reason behind my mom not allowing me to go clubbing with you is coz she's afraid that i wont come back early and would worry her to death that would result in her missing her ferry to Bintan.

oh and for all of your info, the below picture got 2 girls that one kan.. your terms might be Geisha.but they're not.they got different stages le.

1) Meiko - junior player of the musical instrument
2) Maiko - junior dancer
3) Geiko - senior player of the musical instrument
4) Geisha - senior dancer and also high class prostitute.

from point 1 to 3, they would entertain you. yes, an entertainer..like hostess.. as for Geisha, she'll entertain you and give you her punani but for a high price.. heh. oh and the song they dance to, it soooo like as tho they are reciting and singing their bible or some sort.

hehe. good info kannns.

2008-04-12T12:59:00.012+08:00

Osaka trip was not fun at all. for all those 6 days that im there, i barely had a decent sleep. at most, i could get about 3 hours of sleep. worse was on the last day, only 15 freakinn minutes of eye nap

n yea, first day was OK. but on the eve of the actual day, my brother's friend started being an ass till the very last day. and hell yeah i hate him. he likes to ya-ya and he's the attention-seeker type. he wants people to notice about his presence. wont elaborate much bout the ass he was coz its a waste of time. and yea, even my dad and my bro is very much annoyed, irritated and pissed off with him and his petty character.

anyways, many of the pics taken had to be deleted coz there wasnt enough memory. thot i slotted in the 2G MMC but its the 256MB. heh. but anyways, my dad bought me, instead of the Nikon D40, he bought me D60 with extra lens =D!!! im so freakinn happy lahh sehh. anyways, shall leave the pics for your own shiok-ness.

pics with time and date imprint is taken with abby's samsung cam.
the one without the time and date imprint is taken with my NEW Nikon D60!!

and this company is the cause for my trip to Osaka. =D

(pic taken out due to political reasons.)

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2008-04-02T15:31:00.003+08:00

Anonymous: siak kau mcm minah rep siol!!!!
Reply : So? this is my blog. dont like, then leave. easy kann. i dont think you're that stupid or blind to even notice the 'X' at the top right hand corner.

shasha: yes. i noe u. u noe me. i myself almost finish my whole pack today. too much to handle.. haix..
Reply : yea..too much to handle.. dont give up just yet babe.. :(

a fren: rinn... take ur time... tink slow.. ur 19 for gods sake.. haha.. enjoy ur life.. of cos dere r tings u hv to go thru bt then again dats life mah... cheer up okss... tok to u at msn k..
Reply : haiz.. but true lah.. but who you?

2008-04-02T13:56:00.003+08:00

less than 24hours and all hell breaks loose.

siallah. me? in a competition with a whole lot of other girls for your attention?
serious bo? HAH. KIRIM SALAM UHH BOYY.

siak uh. muke aku? in your so-called 'LIFE'? hah. interestingg how you say it. but come to think of it, ITS REALLY INSULTINGG. hahaha. wana call me idiot/chibai? go aheadd.. i dont care.. i dont play around with your feelings or your mind. YOU,Md Haniffa Suliman, yes YOU! you have been toying around with my feelings.

well boy, you got me well and you got me good. REAL good.

but me with other of your 'girls' chasing after your attention? i BOUNCE baby.
heh. sial lah. guys like you, anytime i can get lah eh. like you say, satu pergi, 10 datang.
haha. asal kan kau bahagia kayys?

well, your bruises are clearing up. you're getting better looking now. and your bike will be out in no time. and sure as hell, there's gonna be chicks running after you and yea, you'll be enjoying your life. and you wont have to lie to me. coz by then, we both would already move on.

my imagination you say? hah. no no.
i may assume on everything but when it comes to you,
ITS TRUE IN REAL LIFE.

so, i wont take anymore chances with you.

oh and btw, when you were in the hospital, i persuaded my parents to allow me to visit you even though i've got other important work to do. i sat with you the whole day. accompany you coz you were badly bruised and ill. you slept through while the TV became my companion. i knew you were ill and you needed your rest. said your friend could be a better girlfriend than me if he was a girl. your friend and me? you dare to compare? hah. i knew i chat with Afique. i didnt make fun of you. i just told him what happened. and yea, i admit, i did throw in a few jokes. i didnt flirt with him. he's got his girl. and he told me bout his relationship problems and i told him about ours. and in some ways, it did help. but you never wanted to listen.

oh and dulu, you had this problem towards Ramdhan. you know when the time both of us got friendster behind each other's back? everyone knew i was with you but you posed as being single. at least la i didnt say i was single. yea and all my friends were like asking me to leave you coz you werent being fair. but Ramdhan, he told me to be strong and hang on. he supported me. i needed motivation to be strong when i had nothing left and he was the one that made me keep coming back for you. im not saying that i wasnt sure whether to save the relationship or not. i knew what i want and that is to be with you. but i just dont know how to handle things. you never wanted to listen. btw, he's got his own girl who btw has her own kid.. so why you bother getting jealous?

I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you

i need friends now. not boyfriend.
so i would appreciate it if you all would respect me and my decision.
i'm like sooo DONE with getting myself committed now.

oh and im hoping that im allowed to go clubbing with Bestie on 11 April *fingers crossed*
then then then kan, can get drunk. coz got Bestie's Mum's supervision *SMILES SUPER WIDE*
haha. anybody up for some booze with me?
Haz said i got the boobs and the booze, confirm all guys will be interested. KNS!

Din got chalet since yesterday til i think bout 3 days? hah.
he told me to come by today but he wont be there til about after 10.30pm.
Mike got chalet too. haiz

2008-04-01T16:14:00.002+08:00

hah.the first person to ever prank me this year. MIKE!! yea. April Fools. said the assignment, we failed. he really made me gabra. i didnt notice that today is April Fools. =P

some said they werent sure whether to prank me or not coz they said im mentally-and-emotionally unstable.

-ps. im NOT crazy!!!

today is the last lesson. gots to work hard!!!

yesterday,i almost finished off 1 box. heh. but i curik 4 sticks from someone. and seriously, my heart canot tahan sia. just say the truth. it'll save you alot of trouble you know. i wasnt myself from the MRT till back home. i can go crazy thinking about all these. URGH! thinking about the happy times, puts a smile on your face. but when it comes to lies,betrayal and whatnots, come to think of it, this relationship doesnt deserve another try. yea we do talk about the future but what does it mean to you now? said i act but have you looked thoroughly on yourself?

a note from Din (the-person-who-dreamt-that-we-had-dinner-and-we-were-actually-together-as-in-GF-BF),
"dont smoke too much ar."

2008-03-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

isnt it interesting how life turns out to be a circle of Karma upon you?

i cant believe what i'm facing. hah. oh god. please fast forward my life to the day that i leave Singapore for Osaka. please please please. and when im in Osaka, please help slow the time, or better yet, freeze the time there. i dont wanna go back to Singapore.

1) SLOW DOWN ON THOSE GURL.
2) EYY.. I HAVE YET TO FINISH MINE AND YOU'RE ON 2ND?
3) HEY..COOL LA BABE..

there's so much things up in my head. and i have my studies to get worried about and my work that i have to reach up to the expectations. im barely 19 and im thinking wayy off.

i'm neither here nor there. i dont know what i want. i dont know who i trust. my life is about making people happy? hah. i cant even make myself happy. how great is that? pretence, hypocrisy, lies, betrayals. god. when will everything stop? when will everything starts to get back in place? when will everyone starts seeing what truly matters? when will everyone starts treasuring people who love them? when will people starts seeing the value of breaking the stones? everyday that i live my life, i see contradictions and pretence scattered all over.

life got me off-guard.

im really upset and dissapointed with myself. and there's nothing anyone can do to undo it.

as the stones bleed; it dies

2008-03-30T20:37:00.002+08:00

as planned, will be out-out with girlfriend Syitah tomoro after work. and we'll be going for SPA. ahaha. erm. if im not wrong, normally have to be naked or some sort kan? haha. i dont know le. will be taking many pics tomorrow. =D

oohh. cant wait.

2008-03-29T23:06:00.002+08:00

my hair is HIGHLIGHTED IN BLOOD RED.
heh. not what i have in mind actually. but its ok lah.

oh and mum bought me a new mp3.
the ZenStonePlus at Plaza Sing just now. Wee!~

and now, im sort of broke. heh. splurge on unnecessary stuffs.
barely reaches the month of April. but nvm, still got my
ever-so-faithful credit cards. =D
haiz. the other day, mom threaten to CUT THEM!!
but they're save now. AWAYYY from every visible contact of her.

to Ex-Boyfriend (Md Haniffa Suliman) :
when you're gone, its like the floor just fell from underneath my feet.
and i know that sometimes, its about surviving and thriving through life.
and knowing how to depend on no one but my ownself.
i'm sorry i got you into this mess and also to put into those sleepless
nights. you have now decided to stop every means of being in contact
with me, and now, since im now a nobody to you, i have no choice but
to respect your decision. i'll just let you go; coz you asked for it.

2008-03-28T13:35:00.002+08:00

have you ever felt this feeling of a special attention from someone like how your ex has showered you upon when you were previously with him? i know i do. haiz. i can agree that after the separation between me and Hans, i have many friends and i do know the limitations of friendships. i thought that friendship could somehow be greater than the security of relationship but its otherwise. i guess there are some things that friendships can never cross paths with relationships. friendships are nice but relationship is sweeter.

friends can shower you with laughter,care and concern but having someone you love dearly (and he loves you back), he can shower you with care, concern, unconditional love, security and all sorts of lovely stuffs. haiz.

im not trying to seek attention, but i'm just missing those moments whereby i could just pick up the phone and talk to someone i love whereas with friends, there's this unseen (yet understandable) barrier in which they could not cross beyond it because that's where the task of relationship takes into place.

and im not trying to get myself a new boyfriend. I DONT WANT! i know that not all guys are the same but NO! im sticking with my babysister and my credit cards for companionships and love.

ps. im still not over you.

2008-03-27T16:03:00.002+08:00

syitah: klau ur mom dnt lke u 2 b alone at hk den tell u mom u bring me so u wnt be alone.. hahahah

Reply : hehehe.if i could bring, i'd definitely bring you.just us girls.fun kan kan kan. then we can do whatever we want..hehehe. AWAAYYY from problems. =D

jazaul: tasha! link me okay???

Reply : heyy sweetness, you're linked =)